Emotionless Confessions (Todobaku)

24. Big bad wolf

Hi! I'm back! Had to take a little break from this story to focus on my mental health!

!!TRIGGER WARNING!!ABUSE!!SH!!

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Shoto's POV

I hate this. I hate everything about this. After me and Katsuki left the beach I got a text from my father saying he wants me to come home and 'train'. He threatened me, that if I didn't show up within 30 minutes, the punishment would be worse. I lied to Katsuki saying my sister needs me and I'll see him tomorrow. Of course he didn't buy that but he stopped pushing after the 10th time of me saying I'll be fine. Stupid lies. Of course I won't be fine.

My hands were shaking as I reached for the door handle. Breathe, Shoto. Just breathe. You can do this. You're used to this. After taking a deep breath I made my way inside. "F-Father?" Curse my voice for failing me. Father hates it when I stutter. He gets even angrier when I do so.

"In the training room!!" My fathers loud voice boomed through the hallways and sudden fear and anxiety overcame me. I shook as I made my way to the training room and as soon as I entered a hand grabbed me and pushed me against the wall. My back colliding with the wall sent my breath flying and I coughed, looking up at the big so called Number 1 hero as he stared down at me with those burning eyes. They held hatred and disgust, more so than usual. I mentally prepared myself for what was about to come.

"You're a minute late, brat." He grabbed the collar of my shirt and sent me flying to the ground before he started kicking my stomach. I gasped for air and whined as I ignored the tears pricking at my eyes. "I-I'm sorry, father!!"

"Don't you dare stutter at me, faggot!!"

My eyes widened. What? What did he call me?.. "I.. I'm sorry?.." I look up at him and he yanks me up by my hair. "You really thought I wouldn't find out?! HUH?!"

"I-I don't know wh-what you're talking about!!" At this point the tears had started to spill from my eyes like waterfalls. How did he find out? How?

"I've seen you around that spiky blonde!! So you a slut for him, HUH?! A little gay slut?!" He grabbed my arms and burned them, squeezing tighter as I cried out, sobbing and begging him to stop.

"N-No!! I haven't!! I don't know what you're talking about!! We're just friends!! Pl-Please stop, father!!"

His fist collided with my jaw and I saw stars as I tumbled to the ground. Everything was spinning and my vision got blurry as he kept punching and kicking me, throwing insults ever so often.

"Slut!"

"Worthless!!"

"Weak!!"

"Useless!!"

All the words and sounds of his fists colliding with my body started to fade, and a ringing sound replaced them.

My father kicked me one last time before yelling at me to get my stuff and leave. "I WON'T HAVE A DISGRACE LIKE YOU IN MY HOUSEHOLD!! GET OUT OF MY SIGHT!!"

I gathered the little bit of strength I had left and stumbled to my room, locking the door and sliding down the wall as soon as I got in. My chest was feeling all tight and everything hurt. Breathing was difficult. He's right though.. I'm useless, weak, disgusting.. I should get punished for that. And I should punish myself as well. My mind went spiralling down like a rollercoaster. Everything was blurry and spinning. I felt myself gasp for air as I was hyperventilating. My arms started to itch. This is not going to end well, I could already tell.

I crawled over to my bedside table and rummaged through the drawer. Where is it? Where the hell is it?! A sob escaped my lips as I found what I was looking for and I rolled my sleeves up.

I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry! I let the blade slice into my skin. One cut. Two. Three. FOUR. FIVE! SIX!! More! More!! MORE MORE MORE!! I deserve this! I sobbed as the blood streamed down my arm and hit the floor. I deserve this. I kept telling myself that. I'm useless, weak, ugly, disgusting! I kept slicing at my skin until the sound of my phone startled me. Who? Who would bother to text me at this hour? With shaky hands I grabbed my phone off the floor and checked my texts.

Shit. Shit shit shit shit! It's Katsuki.

'Hey, you forgot to text me when you got home? You okay?'

Immediate guilt and shame overcame me. He'll know. He'll notice when he sees me again. He'll know about the abuse and cuts. I didn't realize it was possible to cry more until the tears came streaming down my cheeks again. My shaky fingers typed a reply. Or at least I tried to. I couldn't see anything through the tears.

'Can I come over?' Before realizing what I typed I already sent it. Shit. If I come over now he'll immediately know. What am I going to do? He'll get mad. He'll be disappointed.

'Of course you can. Are you okay though?'

I left him on read and got up from the floor, my shaky legs barely holding me. Everything hurts. I cleaned the floor and my arms, not bothering to bandage them and threw on an old oversized hoodie to hide all the bruises, burns and cuts. My legs wobbled underneath me as I rushed downstairs and towards the front door.

"Shoto."

My breath hitched as I recognized that voice. I turned around and looked the man in the eyes. "Y-Yes father?.."

"If anyone finds out, I'll kill you. Understood?"

I slowly nodded my head and bit my lip, biting so hard it started to bleed.

"I said, UNDERSTOOD?!" He grabbed the collar of my shirt and pushed me against the wall.

"Y-Yes, father!!"

"Good. Now get out of my sight." He let go of me and went back to the living room. As soon as he let go I stumbled out the door, tears falling from my eyes again.

I ran. I kept running. My clothes were getting soaked from the rain. I need to get to Katsuki.

Not watching were I was going, I tripped over a branch and hit the floor face first. My body wouldn't move. I'm exhausted and blood was streaming out of my nose. I might need to call Katsuki. With my last bit of strength I pulled my phone out my pocket and dialled his number.

.

Silence

He won't pick up.

I was about to hang up when a warm voice spoke to me on the other side.

"Sho? You okay? You never call me. Where are you?"

I didn't know what to say, soft sobs escaping my lips.

"Baby? Where are you? I'll come get you."

I opened my mouth but nothing came out.

"Can you send me your location?"

I could do that. After sending him my location I heard shuffling on the other side and a door open.

"Stay where you are! I'm coming!" And with that he hung up.

My eyes are heavy and my entire vision is blurry. Maybe I can close my eyes until Katsuki gets here. That sounds like a good idea. I closed my eyes and everything went dark, the sounds of the rain getting muffled. I faintly heard someone yell my name and run up to me. They held me in their arms and everything went silent.

This chapter is so long holy. I had to take a few breaks from writing this chapter because it weighted too heavy. I hope everyone is okay.