Left out | KiriKamiDeku

🌱Chapter 9🌱

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Hade extra time in art class to finish this chapter ~Terry

Word count: 3144
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No Person's Pov:

Izuku went back over to the sink in the bathroom, staring himself down in the mirror. He needed so badly to cry, but he couldn't risk his eyes getting all red and puffy and having people ask questions. He immediately thought of the blade in his pocket, knowing that just a few small cuts could help him release the waves of emotion he was feeling. But no, he couldn't. He'd stopped for so long before, and then Todoroki and Bakugo drove him to it on Friday. Luckily he didn't do it again after he left the apartment, but that was only because of Eijirou and Denki. They were also the reason he couldn't do it now. Izuku felt he had to be strong for his boyfriends, and how strong was he if he just became a cutting mess every time his emotions became too much for him? Plus, he didn't want his boyfriends worrying about him.

Izuku just took a few breaths, splashed some water on his face, and went back out to his two amazing boyfriends in the cafeteria.

Denki and Eijirou were just chatting about schoolwork, when they noticed their broccoli looking boyfriend coming back over to the table. He seemed a bit off, but sent them a smile nonetheless. The two boys decided to let Izuku come to them when he was ready, unless he seemed like he wasn't taking care of himself, or something was really wrong. Denki perked up at the sight of his boyfriend, his train of thought traveling to promises of cuddles and kisses. He sat up straighter from Eijirou's side, and started making grabby hands for the greenette, which only brought Izuku's protectiveness back. He strode over a bit quicker, immediately scooping the electric boy into his arms. Denki ended up in Izuku's lap.

The three boys spent the last ten minutes of lunch with Denki in Izuku's lap, and Eijirou snuggled up against the green boy. Safe to say, almost everyone was staring at the trio, some in awe, others in question, and a few in disgust. The three simply shrugged it off, not letting it affect them. While Izuku kept the smile on his face and chatted happily with his boyfriends, he was still feeling pretty shaken up from the conversation in the bathroom. He was trying not to think about it, but he knew that needed to talk to Eijirou and Denki about the proposition Bakugo had made him. If his boyfriends didn't want him to go, then he wouldn't go. The only problem was, the whole thing was making the green boy panic. The more he thought about it, the more he put off talking about it, which only made him panic even more over his procrastination.

Eijirou was talking to Denki about whether or not it was healthy for him to be charging phones with his mouth, when he noticed that Izuku seemed even more out of it than before. There was a light sheen of sweat visible on his skin, his breathing had picked up ever so slightly, and he seemed like he was in a daze of some sort. Eijirou recognized the symptoms as some form of a panic attack, and immediately set into action. "Denks, babe, I think Izu's having some form of a panic attack. We need to get him to the hallway and find out what's been bothering him since he came back from the bathroom." The electric male's eyes widened a bit in concern, before nodding and getting up from Izuku's lap. Eijirou grabbed the greenette bridal style, made sure that Denki was following him, and quickly walked out to the hallway.

Once the trio was alone in the hallway, the red head carefully sat Izuku down on the ground, before crouching next to the now shaking boy. Denki went over to the greenette's other side, hugging him from the right. The electric blond was still feeling clingy, but he wanted to prioritize his boyfriend. He didn't even realize how tightly he was hugging Izuku, until the panicking boy was doing his best to return the affection with a shaky smile. The green boy didn't want his boyfriends to worry. He was doing his best to ground himself so that he could get back to comforting Denki. He could tell that his boyfriend needed affection, and he wasn't going to let another one of his bothersome panic attacks get in the way of that.