Little Bird

Little Bird Part 8

I seemed to be asleep forever. I awoke in the same position I fell asleep in, my body tangled in Eds. I sat up slightly examining Ed’s face. He was still asleep, his arms still around my body. I laid my chin on his chest. Just examining his face, his red hair in all sorts of direction, the freckles sprinkled across his face. His skin was pale, eyelashes dark.

 His chest didn’t get uncomfortable like Harrys did. When I looked at him, I got a different kind of feeling that I only got with him. This feeling never came with Harry, or any boy I had dated. I felt it deep inside of my stomach, sending these nerves and feelings through my body. He made me feel warm, safe, secure, and most of all he made me feel loved. I watched his face until his eyes fluttered open. His blue eyes peeked through his lazy eye lids. Once he eyes focused on me a smile spread across his lips.

“Morning.” My face spread in a huge smile as he looked at me, studying my face.

“Morning Little Bird.” He grinned. I knew this meant that whatever problems we had last night were over. Then I remembered what had happened last night, I remembered about my mother and it upset me again. I frowned significantly.

“Are you going to call her?” He asked, as if he knew exactly what was on my mind.

“Probably not.” I whispered underneath my breath.

“Well whatever happens, I will be here to support you one hundred percent of the time.” Ed assured me and rubbed my back.

“Ed, why are you so amazing?” I asked grinning. Ed threw his head back and laughed.

“I am not that amazing.” He cocked his head and smiled.

“You are to me.” I whispered. Ed allowed another smile on his lips. I leaned forwards and pressed my lips on his. His lips were soft, sending this shock through my body. A small peck that I would have thought meant nothing. We have kissed before, it was a friend thing, but this time when I pulled away I looked at Ed differently, a way that I had never looked at him before. We both pulled away but our eyes locked. 

I almost thought that we were going to kiss again. I almost thought that something more was going to come out of this. I thought maybe there was something here, that I had never recognized before.

I almost thought that we were going to kiss again. I almost thought that something more was going to come out of this. I thought maybe there was something here that I had never recognized before. Was it ever possible that I could feel something for him?

“What was that?” He asked brushing the hair out of my face softly. I felt his finger tips trail my skin a little too long, sending another feeling across my skin. I couldn’t even say anything, all that I could do was stare in awe at Ed. All of a sudden he became the most beautiful human being that I was graced to lay my eyes on.

I wanted to, more than anything, to only lean in and kiss him again. But I couldn’t. I couldn’t risk the friendship we had for love. I couldn’t make myself kiss him. I couldn’t allow myself to press my lips onto his. There was no way that I could risk everything that I once had. Ed was the only person in the whole world that cared enough for me to take care of me, and he still does. I can’t risk everything he has done for me for a simple kiss. What if he didn’t love me back? I knew he loved me, but not the kind of love I suddenly want from him.