Delicate and Ruthless (SERIE FEROCI 11)

Chapter Fourteen

"Wanna know his other weakness? I bet you know about Black Cross, right? Lorden is Black Cross' founder. That organization is the foundation of his power, and once it falls apart, Lorden will be easier to defeat... and right now, Black Cross are slowly drifting apart because of Lorden, they are actually planning to oust him. They will be easier to convince now... Tell your boss to convince them to turn their back against Lorden."

I was just staring at the ceiling when I remembered that information that Draxon told me. My mind was too clouded. I still couldn't believe it... Ano ang pakay ni Draxon? Bakit niya sinabi sa akin ang kahinaan ni Lorden? I even doubted if it was true. Paano kung sinusubukan niya lang ako? I know feroci was formed almost two decades ago... Ganoong katagal na silang magkakasama... There's no way he would betray Lorden.

I don't know what to think anymore.

Napapitlag ako at napabangon nang marinig na bumukas ang pinto. Ngumiti na lang agad ako kay Lorden nang makita ko siya. Lumapit siya kaagad sa akin saka humalik sa pisngi ko. Yumakap din siya sa baywang ko saka isinubsob ang mukha sa leeg ko.

"I'm energized now," he muttered and hugged me tighter.

I smiled faintly and caressed his hair... I felt the same way. Somehow, it felt like I was energized... But the guilt in my heart was still consuming my system. Hindi ko alam kung saan ko kinukuha ang kapal ng mukha na ngumiti sa kaniya at yakapin siya ng ganito.

Tumitig sa akin si Lorden saka humawak sa pisngi ko. "Why do you seem so tired?" he asked. Worry was evident in his voice.

I smiled at him and caressed his hand on my cheek. "Namili kasi ako, tapos nag-paint din. Hindi ako nakapagpahinga."

He sighed and cupped both of my cheeks. "Did you even eat on time?"

I froze... Oh, I forgot to eat.

I just smiled at him and nodded. "Oo. Sa labas naman ako kumain kanina."

Tumango na lang siya, tila nakahinga pa nang maluwag. Mas lalo akong nilamon ng konsensya. He was so worried about me... but all I did was betray him.

I bit my lower lip and gripped his suit. My heart felt heavier. I couldn't take this guilt anymore. Para akong sinasakal. Para akong naiipit at hindi makahinga.

I know I betrayed a lot of people before. Ilan na rin ang naging misyon ko. Even though I spied on heinous criminals and evil people, I still felt a little guilty... but I just swallowed everything because I knew they were immoral and evil... I just bear in mind that I shouldn't feel such things towards criminals like them... but it was different with Lorden.

I knew he probably had done worse things in his life. I knew he was far from good. He was a criminal too... someone who did evil things. Pero natagpuan ko na lang ang sarili ko na lumalambot sa kaniya, na nakakaramdam ng ganito sa kaniya kahit na hindi dapat.

"Kate... Is there something wrong?"

"Huh?"

Natigilan ako at napatigil sa pagpinta. Naramdaman ko ang presensya ni Lorden sa likuran ko. Agad akong napalingon sa kaniya at ngumiti. He touched my cheek and kissed the side of my eye.

"I noticed you've been painting dark arts these past few days."

Natigilan ako sa sinabi niya... Napansin niya pala iyon.

Tipid na ngumiti ako. "Dark art naman talaga ang madalas kong pinipinta. Okay lang ako, Lorden."

He sighed and kissed my lips. "Are you sure?"

I nodded and hugged his waist. I sniffed his manly and homely scent and hugged him tighter... even though the guilt was eating me up. I still hugged him because I needed it. I was such a selfish and heartless woman... I hate myself... so much.