AIKA
7:30AM
I woke up to get ready to go to church. Ginising ko rin sila ni Jill. Mama should be making breakfast today. I went down sa kitchen ng condo namin, no sight of mama could be seen. Mukhang late na ata gigising.
8:30AM
I finished cooking breakfast, at hindi parin siya bumababa.
Jill, Trish can you wake up mama nalang, mukhang nagpuyat nanaman kagabi late na nagising.
Yes ate. They sang in unison. Climbing up the stairs to knock.
Huh? Bat locked. Jill wondered.
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I missed my alarm, it was already 9AM. Buti nalang at Sunday ngayon. I blinked twice, moaning softly feeling the ache in my body.
"Ang sakit ng balakang ko tumatanda na talaga ako." I mumbled. I was naked underneath the covers, five minutes won't hurt.
*knock* *thud* *thud*
"Ma? Ma? Bat nakalock yung pinto? Ma gising kana ba?"
Shit.
Nakalimutan kong may mga anak pala ako.
I looked beside me and she's not there anymore. Panaginip ko lang ba yon? But I was naked. I looked at the mirror and saw red spots all over my body. Nandito talaga siya kagabi, ang kalat ng bed, yung mga damit ko nasa lapag.
"Ma? Bubuksan nanamin gamit nung sparekey ma kanina ka pa namin kinakatok."
I rushed towards the bathroom. Putangina talaga Leonor. I turned the shower on para kunwari naliligo ako.
"Nasa banyo si mama. "
"Huy bakit ang kalat dito."
"Liligo lang ako Trish, hintayin nyo nalang ako sa baba please. " I screamed.
"Weird, never naman si mama naglolock ng pinto ah." I heard Jill's voice.
"Tara na baba na tayo Jill, Trish." Aika queried.
"Tara na Jill."
Salamat Aika. I heard the door closed and sighed in relief. Muntik nako don. I wore my extra robe and opened the bathroom door only to find Aika leaning at the door and holding the doorknob in place. Patay.
"Ma, did Tita Risa came over last night? "
I bit my lower lip.
"Ma, I'm asking you and please.. please answer me truthfully. Hindi ako magagalit and I'll try to understand."
"She went here kagabi." I spoke softly.
Aika sighed in dismay.
"I'm sorry, I should have known better." I retorted.
"I know, just please please tell me you know what you're doing. I know mahal nyo ang isa't isa but please make the right choices"
"I do." I replied.
Liar.
"Okay ma, just please be careful? Kung ano man yang sa inyo ni Tita."
She went out of my room and I went to the drawer. Took my stash of cigarettes and lighter, and yes I do smoke occasionally. I shut the door close, locked the door again. Yes again. Ayoko kong ma-bingo kay Aika, plus hindi nila alam na I smoke.
I break open my window, took a piece and shoved it to my lips. I lit it, took a long inhale of smoke and puffed it through the window. That felt so good, it was calming my nerves. Now I got to think what I should do? I am officially Risa's kabit? Kung sa mga bagets pa, side chick. Kaso di rin yon chick, mukhang sisiw nga lang. I snorted.
I held my lips, inhaling the last bit of smoke on my cigarette. Put it out and threw it on the bin. I sighed.
God fucking damn it Leni, ano bang plano mo?
Hindi ko rin alam?
This mess that I made, allowing this to happen by a mere night. Impulsiveness yes, that is what it is. Pero ako'y nag sisinugaling rin if I say I didn't it. God fucking damn it.
It was 10:00AM and haven't got a any call from her. Baka tulog pa? Unumaga rin kasi kami or maybe kasama niya yung lalake nya. I rolled my eyes and went inside the shower. I hope this problem can wash off with the water nalang.
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RISA
Risa on the other hand was up early, she went home right after Leni fell asleep. She missed her so. It was complicated, we broke up a year ago. I was too selfish now I am stuck in this fucking set-up.
Flashback
"Leni, let's stop this. Ayoko na. Ayokong nagtatago, I love you and you know that. Ang can't even be jealous around you kapag may uma-aligid sayo.
"Risa alam mong ikaw lang, and you know na hindi pwede malaman ng publiko. Nagtatrabaho pa tayo. You in the senate and ako as VP. I promise love, matapos tong term ko hindi nako tatakbo for you." She pleaded.
"I don't know if I can wait any longer. I am so fucking tired of this Lens, 3 years Lens, 3 fucking years. I can't act normal around you anymore. Everytime you're near me, I.. I.. I just can't resist touching you. I don't think I can do this anymore. Masisiraan nako ng bait."
She looked at me with sorrow,
"If that's what gonna make you happy, I'll let you go. Ayoko kong masaktan ka Ris. "
And I saw her walk away, never seen her for weeks. I guess that was it. She was done with me.
End of flashback
Alam ko I was the who iniated it, hindi ko naman akalain na papayag lang siya. But here I am pulled with her magic, something I can't resist. But this time, we started with the wrong path.
Andito ako, hinihintay si Jacob to pick me up. We were going to a political engagement in Negros. Last night was a splurge of the moment. What the actual fuck are you thinking Risa? I sighed and massaged my temple.
"Okay ka lang mahal?" He asked.
I nodded.
"Parang wala ka atang tulog?"
Oh boy I sure didn't. I said in my head.
I closed my eyes, and I see her in my head. Her lips falling into mine, holding unto me. Moaning, gripping, biting, kissing. I swallowed hard.
Hindi pala ako nakapag paalam, she might be overthinking it.
I took my phone out and messaged Leni.
Hi Lens, I'm sorry hindi ako nakapagpaalam. My flight ako papuntang province. I'll sort this out when I get home. I love you.
P.S. Don't think too much.
R.
I yawned, waiting for the plane to rise. I drifted to sleep hoping you are in my arms. My Leni.
