So you are here. Reading this nonsense thinking this a love story? Jokes on you. It is not, never will be. Let me tell you my story, Is this even a story?
Wait..
ano ba tong ginagawa ko? Bat ako nagsusulat.
Fingers halted from typing.
Well? Bahala na? There is nothing else to lose. Or ewan ko hindi ko alam basta, basta magsusulat ako. Just to let these feelings out.
Growing up we were taught that every story ends with the princess marrying the prince and living a happily ever after. It's a norm, a law we should abide. We were taught nothing else.
Leonor, maging mahinhin ka. Kababae mong tao.
Leonor, ayosin mo yang buhok mo.
Leonor, dapat marunong ka magluto. Paano mo papakainin yang asawa mo.
Hay nako kang bata ka ano ba yang sinusuot mo.
Evidently, we had a role to fill in, things we should keep at bay. At least hide and never to let lose. Things are going well, I became what they want me to be. But, is this really what I wanted? Who knows. Matanda nako ngayon, I mean I didn't regret marrying jess, giving birth to three wonderful kids. But sometimes, just sometimes I think about it, ponder about things left unsaid.
Flashback
I like her leon.
Huh? Her bakit her?
Duh? Di ba obvious Bi ako.
Ano? Bi? Ano yan?
Tangina mo naman. Bi di mo alam? Akala ko pa naman valedictorian ka? Pag attracted ka with both genders ganon yon leon.
Oh.... May ganon pala?
Ewan ko sayo bahala ka nga.
End of flashback
I was surprised, living in a household with a large sum of Christian followers. Even I, believes in him. Who woudn't? After all I am from a Catholic school rin naman.
I didn't have the previledge to be loved by a woman or didn't I? Aware naman ako sa mga bagay na yon. I just, I just blocked it out. I became numb, ayoko ko. I don't wanna drown in that thought. As long as I can, I fought. I fought my self to something that was suppose to be normal. Something inside me I kept on hiding, caged it, and never to let lose. She changed me, she loved for who I am. Kahit na naguguluhan ako, andyan parin siya palagi.
Flashback
Lens, andaming nanliligaw sayo.
Wala akong oras dyan Kit, mareview kana nga.
Lens 5 hours na tayo dito sa library , balik na kana sa dorm mo. Ayaw mo rin namang sumama samin.
30 minutes Kit, 30 minutes. Tumahimik kana dyan.
Ok lens, 30 minutes ha.
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Lens, bat ka ba galit sa lalaki?
Huh? Sino naman nagsabi nyan? Hahaha di ako galit.
Andaming nakapila Lens, kahit ako.
Yuck, kadiri ano bang pinagsasabi mo Belmonte.
Bat nga ba ako galit? Hindi naman ako galit. I never looked at it that way. Boys are distraction, why would I want one? Or iba yang gusto mo Leonor.
