flecks of gold like sunshine | KOTLC

19 | from the rooftops (keefe)

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A/N: appreciate the votes :) here's some keefe/fitz page time to celebrate 7.3k reads!

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"I still want her back."

That's the first thing that comes out of my best friend's mouth when we meet up. 

"What do you mean?" I ask, a sinking feeling in my stomach - I'm fairly sure he's talking about Sophie, but how can he have her back now that we've...

Now that we're, well, whatever we are?

Fitz runs his fingers through his spiky hair in frustration, a nervous habit of his. "I mean...I just want Sophie back, you know? I wasn't the best to her, but...but I can change. I just want her by my side again. I really like her, Keefe."

Jealousy burns in my chest.

If Fitz approaches Sophie again, who's to say she won't choose him over me? She might have forgotten what it's like to be with him, and in some random moment of deliriousness, kissed me.

I can't stop the question from bursting out of my mouth. "Yes, but do you like her, or the idea of her?"

Fitz jerks slightly, and I know he was not prepared for that question. A struggle flashes in his eyes, and I realise my words have hit home.

Eventually, Fitz sighs. "Whatever it is, I know we belong together. I can feel it, trust me, Keefe."

"I do trust you, Fitz," I reassure him, "you're my best friend. But...think about it. If you get back in a relationship with Sophie, in the end, you're just going to hurt the both of you. It won't end well, and...and, well, how do you know she hasn't moved on?"

Moved on to me?

Slight pride swells in me, but I know this isn't the right moment. My best friend is hurting, and I should help him.

Something like rage passes his face, then it's gone. Possibly he's outraged that I could suggest such a thing, but he needs to face the facts. "She hasn't Keefe. How can she forget us so quickly?"

The way he says "us" makes my stomach churn. 

If only he knows that Sophie doesn't want him anymore - certainly not after he hurt her like that.

Still, revealing that fact would only hurt Fitz and Sophie - Sophie because I would be breaching her trust. Plus, it would demolish friendships in the process.

So for now, our relationship stays hidden - which isn't ideal, of course. I want to be able to scream from the rooftops that I love her and I want to be able to kiss her in the hallways without caring about who's looking. I want to be able to have my arms around her when we walk.

But for Sophie, I would do anything.

I sigh. "Alright, if you say so, Fitz. But I've warned you."

Fitz shoots me a determined look. "You'll see. I'll talk to Sophie, and I'll hear from her own mouth that she wants us to get back together."

I lurch out to grab his arm, to stop him - but before I can do anything, he's gone.

Oh, Sophie, I can only think, I'm sorry.

I can only hope she'll be kind to Fitz.

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