Our Story

Part 12

Yuxin Pov
I change my clothes first with dry one and then go to at some wooden long chair in the side of the beach. Below coconut tree and sit there. I still can see our surfing location, so Yibo find this place when still surfing today? He had sharp eyes for good place like this. It's not too much get sun light and have many  coconut tree around it.

I am already sent message to Liu Ye said I wait him here but I still have fear talk to him later. I arrange my words carefully and still get stimulation talk in my head. I am soo nervous and confused even now.

"Hey, Yuxin. Have you been waiting for a long time?"Liu Ye already in my side now

"No. Just some minutes ago. How your surfing today?"

"Yeah, its fun" He give me answer after rise up his eyebrow to me. Seems he find my question had some meaning in it.

"Let's not talk about that. You call me, right?"

"Yeah, I am. There are thing I wanna tell you" We sit beside each other. I touch my hair many times cause I am nervous. I sighed many times and look at him again. But still too hard to give my first word.

"Maybe this is about that night? When I give you chicken soup?"

"Yeah. But I need time to give you my word"

"Take your time. Don't forget to breathe" He smile which made me smiling too.

"7 years?Our friendship" He look at me. Ahh, this word weigh me down.

"Yeah. We really know each other for a long time. But still, I think you are not that close with me, Yuxin"

"Really? But you are always kind to me. It's enough and I am thankful for that"He look at the sea now, avoid my eyes

"But I wanna be the first person you talk when you had hard time or good thing happen to you. If we still in this term, its will not happen" I suddenly quiet with his word.

"When I asked you, you will always said I am okay. I dont wanna always wandering alone about how your feelings"

"But we can start that even if we were friends"

"No. You are not. You prefer save it yourself than burden me" He look at me in the eyes. I cant talk back to that cause its true.

"Liu Ye, I am really thankful for your kindness but-"

"Can we being more than friends? Seven years already enough to know each other well, right?" He cut my word and bring conversation like that. Made me speechless.

"You can think of it. I will wait"

"I cant"

"So fast? Think, Yuxin. We already friends for 7 years, you and me grow together. I know you more than anyone else. Just look at your heart more, Yuxin"

"I am already done that. I dont have enough sleep nowadays cause thinking about this" I tell him the truth. I got headache nowadays cause less sleep and more of it cause this issue.

"Why we cant, Yuxin?" His voice bit hoarse now. Made me feeling in fault.

"Your role in my life already important, Liu Ye. But not as lover. I cant imagine about that matter"

"You never feeling your heart thumping when you are with me?" I shake my head left and right.

"Sorry. You are like brother for me" I look at my feet now. It's soo hard

"Can't at least we try?"He sound helpless

"I will hurt you. You know that for sure. I dont wanna see you suffering more than this"