Finding Naomi

|7.| Fix You

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|7.| Fix You

September26,2015 11:56P.M.(Present Day)

Feeling my vision get blurry, I watched Terrence put his hand to his cheek and look at me with confusion.

"Naom-"

"Shut up." I hissed clenching my eyes shut.

I hiccuped, holding my head in my hands. "Just shut up! You're a liar! You lied you didn't protect me, you left me! You left even though you kn-"

I cut myself off sinking to the ground, curling up into a ball. Letting out a choked sob as I felt Terrence touch me shoulder.

"Don't touch me!" I screamed slapping his hand away, looking up too see a pained look run across his features.

"Naomi Please.." He whispered reaching for me again.

I dug my nails into my scalp, feeling them pierce the skin.

He touched me again but this time I didn't want him to let go, just this once.

Just this once I want someone to hold me while I cry, to tell me it's ok even when we both know it's not.

Slowly he lifted me up with the help of me standing, he hesitantly put his arms around my shoulders and pulled me to him.

"I'm sorry.." He whispered tightening his hold on me, putting his chin on the top of my head. "I'm so sorry I wasn't there, I'm sorry I left you."

I wrapped my arms around his waist and let myself break down. Just like on the day Andrew and his friends beat me up.

Just like the day Terrence left me.

He held me. Never once did he loosen his hold. He held me and he didn't let go until I was done. Until I was ready.

It felt weird, being able to decide if I was ready or not. I'm used to things happening and me getting used to them. Everything about this moment feels weird.

I forgot what this felt like... I forgot what safety felt like. I've been terrified everyday since Terrence left, every fucking day.

I hate that even though I should hate Terrence right now, I don't. I cant, he's to important to me.

I know that after tonight, we can never do this again. I can never let him in again, not like last time. I want to, Hell I really want to. But Terrence left me once, he can and he will do it again.

Everyone leaves, it might be a long time before they do but they always leave.

But tonight, I want to feel this for as long as I can. I don't want to let him go, but if I hold onto him for too long I might not be able to let him go.

I don't even think I can let him go.

I hate knowing that I don't mean shit to him, that the baggage he was holding was to heavy. So he decided to let me go, and he never looked back.

That's all I'll ever be.. baggage.

Something everyone carries around for a little while but then they dump it away. And I'm stuck in that same place until someone new finds me, and we repeat the process all over again.

Sniffling I let go of him, taking a step back. I wrapped my arms around myself, creating a barrier. Closing my eyes I took a deep breath, trying to tell myself that it's ok to let him go.