Finding Naomi

|16.| Deja Vu

So. I changed my mind this chapter will be just Present, next chapter will be about the past again.
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|16.| Deja Vu

November 30, 2015 (Present Day)

I didn't realize how much I missed smoking until the cigarette touched my lips, it had started snowing pretty early in the year, so here I am sitting on the bench at me and Terrence's old park.

I've always loved winter.

Everything was calmer, no bugs, the smell of cinnamon and the feeling of warmth when you walk into store during Christmas time, it's like winter just slowed everything down, made people at ease.

The only things I love about Christmas are the smell, and the lights decorating the houses. I haven't gotten a Christmas present since the Eeyore Terrence bought me.

It was a Monday, so Terrence was at school. I'd be there to but I already finished this week and next weeks assignments so I get to have a little break.

Even though by the time I go back Christmas break will be starting soon so I'd just be leaving again, it's not like I want to go back.

I heard Andrew was back, his dad was a pretty good lawyer so you know. He's pretty pissed considering he knows I was responsible for his arrest, his dad threatened to sue the school if they didn't let him back in so now he's looking for me.

My hand is no longer in its cast, just a tight bandage that doesn't let me move it too much. My wound was pretty much healed already, I got the stitches out yesterday.

But now it's left a big ugly pink scar.

What's one more though right?

I threw the cigarette into the snow and kicked some on top of it, my dad had brought his girlfriend home to meet me a couple days ago.

She was a kind lady, she honestly loved my father and I could tell she was willing to love me as a daughter as well. She makes my dad better, this is the longest I've seen him sober, it almost scares me to think about what he'd be like if they broke up.

Meeting someone that could possibly become a mother figure has made me wonder about my mother, I had never really thought much into it.

I don't even know what she looks like, my dad has no pictures of her, no videos. He hasn't even kept any of her belongings, it's frustrating.

I want to ask him but he's doing so well, which is even more frustrating.

Everything's been bothering me lately, especially Terrence.

Little bitch got himself a damn girlfriend, she's annoying as shit too. I was so wrong when I said she was sweet.

So wrong.

She was probably the inspiration of the minions; her skins a weird shade of yellow, she's got big beady eyes, talks to fast to understand, sounds like a chipmunk, and is so short I feel like I could step on her if I don't look where I'm going.

Out of all people, Terrence chose to date her. Honestly even I would have been better for him, not that, that could happen.

She's with him twenty four seven, she's been to my house twice and both times I considered setting her on fire and feeding her to Flurry. She's accused me four times of satan worship because I wore a Memphis May Fire shirt.

I may or may not wear that shirt every time I see here just because it annoys her, she also caught me smoking one time and said I'm going to hell.