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Chapter 25 - Dear One

Sorry guys. I've been dealing with so much stuff right now that it made me want to abandon all my stories and delete this account. But don't panic, I won't.

I'm not much better but in a better situation that before. Maybe I will get better, but I have decided not to abandon this at all because it still gives me the release I need. Thanks so much for all your votes and comments to far and I really do appreciate you all for sitting down and reading whatever unworthy crap I write. Xoxo.

(This chapter is a bit short, but it was necessary.)

Zoe.

My head swirled, processing nothing but a fuzzy haze of confusion. I pushed James away with my pupils dilating and my heart beating at an unnaturally fast rate. He seemed confused by my action with infuriated me on the inside. How dare he even have the guts to appear confused by my action?!

The man I was irrevocably in love with was waiting for me, yet James had the guts to wonder why I refused his advances.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?! Are you stupid?!" I shouted at him.

James blinked breathing hard "I'm sorry K-"

"No you're not!" I shouted back. "You know I have a boyfriend yet you kissed me anyway! FUCK!"

He looked distorted "I'm really sorry, I don't know why I did. I thought it would make me feel something."

I ran hand through my hair roughly going to sit on the carpet near the wall. The fact that my lips had touched someone else's who wasn't Axel made my stomach turn in ten different swirls of disgust.

James was opposite me breathing heavily, his hair covering is eyes. I immediately stood up without thinking and went over to him, hitting him across the face as hard as possibly could. His face showed a mix of shock and pain together.

My hand stung.

"I know that I deserved that. But you have to listen to me Kendall." He pleaded holding up his bruised cheek with his hand.

My breathing was laboured and ragged "Why would you do that?" My voice was thick with emotion.

He stared right at me "You love him that much don't you?"

I didn't answer. I only glared right back at him.

James let out a humorless laugh "I'm so stupid. Fuck, of course you're in love with him. So in love that kissing me disgusts you."

He didn't sound disappointed; more like intrigued about the whole situation.

"Right now I have no explanation owed to you, but yes I love him. I love him so much that it consumes my being and makes me want nothing else. Not you, not any other human on the whole planet."

My phone rang but I ignored it. My head was turning with too many emotions to handle. James sat wearily on the couch, trying not to make eye contact with me. Not that I wanted to anyway.

I walked to the small dining table and snatched my phone.

"Don't expect any form of contact from me ever again. " I said to him without turning back to him. With that statement I left the apartment without a single glance back.

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"Axel?" I called out as soon as I got into the apartment. My voice was slightly shaky and my fingers trembled slightly as I opened the already unlocked front door. Axel was definitely home by that observation alone. The incident with James made me feel guilty, even though every law in the universe was probably screaming that I wasn't in the wrong.