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Chapter 37 - No Love For A Liar

Song - Liar, Liar - Avicii

"You ok?" I asked Axel. We were getting ready for the Christmas party that my mother was throwing in about an hour. I was all dressed up in black jeans and a gorgeous pale blue sweater gifted to me by Pierce a few days before.

Axel sat on the bed while I had dressed already looking scrumptious in his dark blue slacks, cream sweater and black suede loafers. He managed to trim his beard also which added to his looks in my honest opinion. I was concerned because he'd just sat down quietly as soon as I had begun to talk about the party and relatives who I hadn't seen in so long and all. Normally, Axel would inject one or two comments which would either make me smile or roll my eyes. Neither of which had happened.

He rubbed his face "No nothing's the matter at all darling. I'm just a little stunned."

I sat beside him "What's got you startled?"

Axel turned to look at me, like really look at me, with the kind of look that said that his next words were going to blow something up between the two of us.

"Aren't you scared?"

I blinked. That was not quite what I was expecting. Actually I was expecting something more along the lines of "This is a mistake" or "Ready to make my green card official?" Definitely not this.

"I really don't know what you're referring to." I replied slowly.

"Kendall. When I first met you, I was seconds away from calling the police." I wanted to laugh at that but didn't. "But I'm so glad that I didn't. To be honest, all I wanted at the beginning of our arrangement was sex. But I knew that I was fucked the moment I took you to Martin's exhibit because that was the night I knew that I wanted so much more for us."

He closed his eyes so tight that for a second I thought he might cry and I didn't want to deal with that while my Mom might come to knock and ask us why we're taking so much time since her guests are arriving.

"I didn't see any of this coming. Not falling for you, not wanting you every second of the day, not caring for you the way I do. And it scares me because I've never felt this way before and I don't know how any of this will go or turn out. So I have to ask you again: aren't you scared?"

It took me a second to understand what he meant. And my answer was:

"Of course I'm scared. I'm terrified even. This is all so new to me too."

I placed my head on his shoulder "But I trust you and I trust myself also. And you should also trust yourself. I can't see the future, I don't know how any of this will turn out either but I'm so willing and ready to try love. And I hope you are too."

My tone was hopeful. Axel tilted my head to his side and pressed our lips together in a kiss much too dirty for the occasion we were soon about to attend but I didn't care too much. I pushed his head closer to mine and he shamlessly groped my behind like a man who hadn't gotten any in a long time.

We finally pulled away when my body decided that it also needed oxygen as well as a steady supply of my boyfriend's lips.

"We should go down now." I whispered just lying down sideways with half of my body in Axel.

"Yes. I promised your mother I'd teach her how to make some Arubian cocktails." He replied with a bit of strong conviction on his handsome features which made me let out a many giggle. He was still very into this whole Make Kendalls Mom Love Me campaign which I didn't have the heart to tell him that Mom wasn't as hard core as she'd let on. It was very nice to see that he was making such an effort to get my mother to like him purely for my sake.