In a Dream (2d x Reader)

Necklace

(TW: pill use, self harm, etc.)

Y/N's POV:

Ever since I was little I didn't feel at home. I hated my parents, siblings, house. "At least you have water, food, and a roof over your head" they would all say to me. Well... listen here, my dad is an alcoholic bitch, my mom is a whore that fucks every guy off the street, my siblings might seem innocent but they know exactly what they are doing; spoiled brats. I sometimes feel like I am the only person that actually cares in my family. But then I turn into a person that I don't recognized in the mirror when I get upset. I just wish I could leave everything behind and just disappear from this world. My friends say they love me but I find that hard to believe. My boyfriend hits me when I do the minimum...but that's normal right? He's loves me....he just....he just shows it differently than others. That's love right? I think my parents still love me...they just; they aren't doing okay right now...ever. Getting hit when you do something wrong or getting yelled at when you cross the line just little is love right? I sometimes wonder if I know what love is. Do I know? What is love? I don't remember....maybe because I never actually felt love before....or received it.

I lock the door and kick it.

"FUCK! fuck! fuck! fuck! fuck! I FUCKING HATE YOU! I FUCKING HATE YOU die! die! AHHH!" I throw myself on my bed and start to vigorously punch my pillow.

"FUCK!! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU!" I attempt to rip my pillow, punching it, kicking my bed, throwing my stuffed animals everywhere.

"AHHHHHH!" I yell into my pillow kicking my legs, waving my hands and punching my bed.

I'm not okay, I'm not mentally okay, I need help but I don't want to accept it. I fucking hate myself.

"UGH!" I throw my pillow across my room and stumble to my backpack laying in the corner of my room. My shaky hands making it hard for me to unzip it I grab my pills.

I swallow 1 or 2...maybe 3......4. Maybe that will help me not feel anything anymore?

5

6

fuck, im out.

I find a sticky note on the pill container

~"Only 1 Y/n!" ~

"fuck you mom." I get up and open my bathroom door.

I stare into the mirror above the sink.

My long hair all messy, my cheeks rosy red, my eyes red

"I look pretty." I told myself.

"shut the fuck up Y/n." What is wrong with my brain?! Why am I like this?! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!

I open the mirror cabinet. In there was a whole bunch of pill containers, I take one and look at it. My stomach stirs. I drop the container on the floor. I pick up small scissors hiding in the corner.

I look at my pale wrist. I pull the scissors closer to my wrist. My hands begin to shake. My eyes begin to water as I picture my younger self staring at me. I picture her question what I'm doing. Picture her tugging my shirt and staring at me.

"fuck." My shaky breath. I drop the scissors and close the cabinet. I sit on the bathroom floor and cry. Cry. that's all you ever do Y/n! WHY DO YOU ALWAYS CRY?! crying.

It feels like I was there for an eternity when I was only there for 10 minutes.

I get up and look at myself in the mirror one last time. I smile and walk out.

Turning off the bathroom light and entering my room. Dark, the only thing giving me light was the moonlight. My window was open making my curtains dance in the cold wind. I get butterflies in my stomach. I quickly put on some baggy jeans, my converse, and a baggy sweater. I climb out my window being careful not to slide down my roof. I smile at the moonlight.

Wasn't I just crying? Wasn't I just mad? Wasn't I just about to harm myself? DIdn't I just swallow 6 pills?

My mind punched me. I shook my thoughts away. Making new ones.

"The moons so pretty." I quietly said trying to get down from my roof.

THUMP!

I landed on the concrete. I lived in a neighborhood where it was dark, quiet at night, and empty. Only a single street lamp lit the whole street. You could see fog cover the side walks. You could see your breath from how cold it was.

I began to have a nice walk.

------30 mins later------

I walked back home.

"I hate this part..." I grabbed a ladder I stole from my neighbor and climbed on the roof. I didn't notice but there was a pointy side of a brick right when my knee hit.

"OUCH!" I hissed in pain as blood began to drip down staining my pants. As I inspected my knee I noticed something near my window.

"what?" As I approached it I heard thunders coming from the sky. I look up confused. I shrugged and looked back near my window

"a necklace?" I picked it up. It had a number and a letter

"2..........d....." hm. weird. I grabbed it and smiled it. Putting it on me.

I quickly climbed inside my room and look at my body mirror.

"cool necklace!" I smile completely forgetting about my bleeding knee.

I look at the clock.

12:30 am

"Oh wow, I didn't know it was that late." I said to myself

~ring~

I looked down at my phone.

~Kyle~

"bitch come over. I need to fuck you right now."

I flip my phone over and ignore my boyfriends text.

~ring~

~ring~

~ring~

My eyes grew watery as I remembered how he would touch me and hit me. I decide to turn off my phone completely.

I put on my pjs and jump on my bed.

"Maybe tomorrow will be a better day..." I said holding onto the weird necklace I found. My stomach filled with butterflies again. I got confused...why do I keep getting butterflies tonight?

I shrugged off my thoughts and grabbed my stuffed bear cuddling it.

"goodnight..." I told myself. I drifted off to sleep without knowing it.

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Eyes closed, still asleep, my hand moves around trying to find my stuffed bear, why is my bed so hard? Why is it so cold? Where did my blanket go? Eyes still closed. No actually...I'm I still on my bed? Hm..maybe I just fell. Too lazy to open my eyes.

THUD!

I heard something bang. Like an old elevator. I open my eyes.

wait....this isn't my bed?!

"what the fuck?!" I loudly whisper. I look around. I was in a house? Not my house. Not my bed. Not my room. WHAT?! I look up at a sign above the elevator.

Kong Studios.

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1,118 words!! First chapter of this new story! I can't wait to unravel more! I hope you luvs are doing okay! Stay tuned! ❤️