All because of us

7

Bren POV:

What in the fucker fuck just fucking happened?

I kissed Lexie. I kissed my best friend. I kissed Cherry.

I kissed her and I liked it. More than like it honestly, from the obvious fucking painful throbbing between my legs.

I don't know what's going on but it's consuming my mind.

Last night, I tried my hardest to ignore it. I tried my best to not hookup with a random girl. I really tried but it's no secret I fucked up. I brought a random girl to my room that's in one of my classes to fuck whatever I was feeling out of my system and Lexie was there.

Lexie was there in my bathroom while I had another girl in my room. Chasing her out of the room was a whiplash in itself because I didn't want her to leave. I wanted her with me, in more ways than one. In more ways than I can admit. I immediately backed out at whatever was going to happen. I sent the girl home with an Uber, because I'm not a jackass like that even though I don't even know her name.

I felt incredibly guilty right after. Why should I feel like shit? I'm single. I could've easily fucked that girl, however, it didn't feel right. I took a tremendously cold shower afterwards and it wasn't enough to take the tension off my shoulders.

The way Lexie was standing in my bathroom, her legs crossed, her cheeks as red as her hair color. I just wanted to grab her and fulfill all my fantasies right there except I had a girl in my room. Lexie heard me. She was flushed because of me. The thought of having her blush and writhe underneath me would be tantalizing.

Fuck. I exhale deeply rubbing my hands on my face. Kissing her felt unexpected and yet natural—as if we've done it millions of times before. As if it wasn't the first time. Damn, that was a kiss. I knew the moment we crossed the line, I knew the moment we caved in—everything would change. Three years of friendship, and now I don't know what's going on. All I know is that I crave her. Now that I've had a taste of her lips, I want more. Just one more taste.

Maybe thats all this is? To do this once and our desires towards each other will go away?

I'm sitting on the steps of the pool after eating a few slices of pizza. Sebastian couldn't stop eyeing me weirdly and I know why. I have scratch marks on my back from when I kissed and sucked on Lexie's delicate skin. The way she moaned my name made me forget we were in the kitchen, made me forget we weren't the only ones in the house. If the pizza didn't arrive, who knows what would have happened.

When I first met Lexie three years ago on the cruise ship, my first impression of her was that she's beyond stunning. I was astonished that I've never came across her before knowing she's best friends with Yasmine, Seans little sister.

I knew the moment I met her she was special. We instantly had a bond and the chemistry between us was impalpable. I knew that if I hooked up with her in that moment, it would've been different. I've never had a girlfriend. I'm not the kind of guy that dates or sleeps around excessively. I've always kept mostly to myself and basketball considering all the problems I endured growing up. I didn't have the time or want to pursue anything until I met her.

That is why I immediately friend zoned myself and kept her in my life instead of being a one time thing. She was too special to let go.

She is special.

She's my best friend and now I'm worried we may have messed things up.

The boys always told me I was crazy to not want to get with her—that eventually it was bound to happen. She's not my type is what I always say. On the contrary, Lexie is exactly my type. Which is why I make it my mission to only be with girls who don't look like her.