My Sister's Best Friend [T.Chalamet]

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Feb 2020 Oscars (let's pretend covid never happened xoxo)

That video of timothee disrupting Margot Robbie's shot during the Oscars was blowing up all over social media. Who could blame them? He looked perfect in that suit, and Prada did suit him. A lot.

I had not really seen him since the little women afterparty. I guess since he was pretty much at his peak level in this moment, it did not matter. I no longer mattered. At least to him. Saoirse still talks to him; he would come and visit her, just when i was not there. At the same time, i had more classes and reading to do so i jumped into that and busied myself in those. truth is, sadly, dear readers, that you can't forget someone when you're still hoping for them to come back. To me. I wish I would just approach him and ask him but the voice in the back of my head screamed otherwise. I tried to erase it and move on but I saw the way he looked at her. Lily claimed that he would not even look at her, let alone talk to her properly but at that party, he had his arm draped across her body. He looked at her and she looked back in the same manner.

Saorise told me the great news too. As a result of his heightened fame, he got the role for the upcoming book-to-movie adaptation of dune. He's starring alongside Zendeya. A part of me wanted to call him and give him my congratulations about it. I know he would be so excited for it as well. Especially working alongside Zendeya. I wonder what lily thought of that.

I was on the sofa, mostly just scrolling through the channels; if i am being honest, there was not anything that great to watch. Netflix had grown quite poor now too. When soairse walked in and took the remote from me, as she sat next to me. I thought to protest but i was not doing anything at the moment so i let it be. She scrolled through YouTube and played this video. When i saw what she had searched for, a part of me grew uncomfortable. It was an interview of the little women cast, mostly soairse, florence and Timothee.

They were talking about their roles for this movie. Their thoughts on their characters and more simple discussions to promote the movie. Not that it needed promotion. I mean, Emma Watson was in the movie. And him. When i saw him on the screen, I did not know what to say. he looked good—greater than good. His hair was a mess but in a typical hollywood boyfriend-material way. He looked the same—even dressed the same—in a casual shirt and trousers.

I felt a jolt inside of me and i returned to reality, I looked around and soairse had gone too, I was about to turn the interview off but timothee began speaking. He was talking about love in the film in regards to his character, specifically how special that bond you share between that person you love is and how, once that bond is lost, how hard it is to get back. I felt my heart drop but then soairse's voice brought me back. She changed the topic in the interview and made timothee's response a joke about their roles and always sharing unrequited love. First timtohee rejected her in Ladybird, so now she had the opportunity to reject him. I wanted to laugh; a part of me would have laughed but i remained caught up in the response timothee had given. Was it about me? Us? If that even still re-examined? Was there a small, mere chance. I felt my heart ache, my stomach drop and my breath tighten from my lungs caving in. that's love.

I wanted to doubt it simply because of how he looked at her at the afterparty but the signs showed the opposite. Well... sign. Only one thing but it was the biggest sign he could give. When he was on screen, delivering interviews, we had this thing he would do as an inside secret or joke between us two. A form of secret communication whilst he was on live tv for us. He would sit down normally and speak normally in their interview but his left hand's index and middle fingers would be crossed together.

I wanted to believe it was not true.

But he did the second signal too; he touched his left ear frequently when answering that question, and he even looked at the camera too.

i knew what i had to do, i guess. all the signs (singular but there are many more) pointed towards one option.

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so short, it's disappointing :(

i hope it isn't going so fast Please let me know!