My Safe Haven

Chapter 7

The week went by real slow.

The days dragged on and the heat never mek it nuh better.

I did my best though to pull through an not to let it get to me.

I've been at the house by myself for almost a week now an god know mi naa complain.

At least after a hard day at work mi can come home to quiet. These days when I get home from work, mi jus easy back and watch Boondocks or something.

I been into K-dramas a lot recently so I mostly binge those before bed.

Belle and I have only texted through the days as she was busy dealing with some stuff that she shipped down and apartment hunting an whatever.

Redz have stopped by a about two nights ago saying how Macky malice the both of us because B come and we nuh call him.

Him a act like a say nobody can seperate him an the love of him life. When dem ready not even gunshot can get dem fi move when dem tangle up together.

But she promised to come back sometime weekend or the next week so he can see her then, if him nuh gone grind again.

Finally weekend come roun and mi feel like mi did ago mad inna the piece of house.

Mi really need fi start live life enuh. As a young 20 year old gyal mi can count pon one hand how much time mi ever go anywhere nice or adult like.

Like how yuh see them girls dress an go clubs an bars an beaches and stuff on the weekends, me never do dem supm deh yet.

I've only been to the parties that would keep on the ball ground or down by a bar down the hill called Corna Spot.

All in all some woulda say I have no life. Mi jus go work, home an repeat. When I have my days off I spend that time doing laundry, cleaning and just sleeping.

Can say its partly my fault since I don't even talk to people, but I really can't help it.

I suck at social interactions!! I don't know how to start conversations with people and I have major anxiety overall.

People do mi so much wickedness since mi deh pon earth and really, mi try give the benefit of the doubt morewhile but people will always be people.

Belle and the guys, mostly Belle, were the only persons that made me feel comfortable enough to express myself in certain ways.

I'm glad that they are the type of people that can be wild and animated one minute, comedic the next and quiet and reserved another.

Mi naa lie it did affect mi when we break up enuh. After Belle lef an gone and the boys find fi them company, I was basically left with no one to talk to.

Nuh get mi wrong I don't blame them at all cause a nuh fi dem fault mek mi socially awkward, plus people eva say mi face look mek up like mi vex an them nuh waa mi shame them or something.

Honestly sometimes mi waa talk to people but my anxiety gets the best of me so mi just nuh bother.

Lost in my thoughts I didn't hear my phone buzzing on the centre table.

Just as I am about to answer it, it goes to voicemail. Realizing that it was B who was calling, I went to whatsapp to call her back.

"Yuh nuh answer phone eeh lady." She said immediately after answering.

"Mi say a true mi not even a too pay attention enuh. Anyway wah gwaan?" I replied getting comfortable in the settee.

"Nothing enuh. Mi finally get a likkle break from the madness an realize say mi miss mi bestie an ago give her a call. By the way how yuh nuh deh work?"
She asked.