Snap out of it

Beautiful

Blake's POV
2 weeks later

I haven't seen Alex since I left, because he went on tour, I think he was upset that I couldn't come with him. Ivy has sometimes but she calls me every night, she been very busy with work. I get out of my bed, getting into my clothes. They've allowed me to wear my own clothes since I'm getting better. Some days are good but others aren't so good. I walk out of my room towards the cafeteria grabbing some food.
"Miss Reed, you missed our session yesterday would you like to do it now" one of the councillors of the centre walks up to me.
"Ye sure" I rub my eyes, trying to not make myself fall asleep again. We both sit down onto a table, "so how's your week been" she asks.
"uhh good I guess" I take a sip of my water, she gets her notepad out of her bag. No not the notepad.
"So have you heard off Ivy" she says clicking her pen.
"Ye last night she called me"
"That's good, well the way your going you might be out in 4 days" she says smiling, I nearly choke on my food. "I've already in formed Ivy about it, I believe in you Blake" she gets up and walks away from the table, wow that was weird. I put my rubbish in the bin, walking back through the corridor trailing my hand across the wall.  I reach to my room, I go in taking my shoes off. I've been very tired lately, been hearing screams and yells down the hall from people. I haven't really made friends as well, most people here are youngsters or old men in there 40's. It's sad to be honest. My phone starts ringing with Alex's name popping up. I answer the FaceTime sitting up right on my bed.

"Hey beautiful how's your week been" he smiles, running his head through his hair.
"It's been good, I'm leaving in 4 days" I say as his smile grows bigger.
"That's amazing I'm glad you're doing better"
"How was the show last night" I ask him.
"It was great, the crowd were amazing it felt like the best one yet, when you come out you should go to one" he suggests moving around with the camera.
"Ye I should"

We keep on chatting until I had to go down for dinner, I think it's the longest time we've called. Alex had to go as well cause he had a show tonight in Brazil. I'm so jealous, I've always wanted to go to Brazil. I go down into the dinning hall, tying my hair up. I see people sat around the circular tables, I have not made any friends so I just sit by myself.
I start to eat my food, I feel different after joking this place it's like I don't belong anywhere, I can't think the last time someone actually took interest in me.
I know me and Alex had a thing but we were drunk, and he does call me love and beautiful cause he's my best mate. I don't know what to do with myself?