COSMOS | seongjoong

chapter 4.

(tw: indications of r@pe !! it starts at the first '⚠️' and ends at the second '⚠️' if you want to skip !)

hongjoong's pov

the moment i saw sungjoon on the other side of the door, my jaw dropped to the ground. i was disgusted to see his face again; this man was wooyoung's ex, who had cheated on him a few years back. i wonder if seonghwa is the one he cheated with. does this beautiful man know how much of an ass his boyfriend is? san and i had known how bad sungjoon was before wooyoung was able to notice. that's completely understandable though, all the red flags seem to disappear when you're in love with someone. i kept a mental note in mind to look out for seonghwa, and to make sure he was okay as much as i could. but all thoughts aside, i looked up and gave a fake smile to the taller male.

"hi, i'm guessing your seonghwa's boyfriend?"

"yes i am... i didn't know the both of you were so close..." sungjoon gave a suspicious look towards the both of us. why is the first look he gives to seonghwa doubt? his expressions were making me angry, i tried to keep the rage boiling inside my body hidden as seonghwa spoke. "we aren't! today's the first time i've ever met him, i promise. we were just having small talk while i was waiting for you," seonghwa gave the man a soft smile. he doesn't deserve your absolutely stunning smile, seonghwa. after he said that, sungjoon dropped off the bags inside and grabbed seonghwa by the wrist, saying he was going to talk to him outside of our dorm. i nodded with suspicion, and i made sure to listen to their conversation. the walls were very thin, after all.

seonghwa's pov

as sungjoon made it to the dorm with my suitcases, i could see the evil glances he sent to hongjoong; it was almost as if they knew each other with the way the shorter male was sending them straight back. i shrugged it off, concluding that i was probably overthinking. soon enough, sungjoon pulled me outside into the walkway of our dorm building. he was fuming, but i honestly didn't know why.

"i want you to change dorm rooms as soon as possible. you can't trust him at all!" sungjoon whisper shouts to me, all without letting go of my wrist. i huffed at his absurd request, " why should i? he seems completely fine. plus, i'm almost sure all of the other dorm rooms are filled already!" i made sure to speak at a normal volume, as i didn't understand why this needed to be a "secretive" conversation.

"do i really need to explain to you?? can't you just take my word for it... i wouldn't lie to you and you know that. he's just a bad person, and i don't want you near him." i can't believe this man in front of me had the audacity to call hongjoong a bad person when he was literally the devil reincarnated. "no... i honestly can't take your word for it. why would i do that when you won't even consider mine?? i am really not in the mood to talk to you right now after yesterday. you should go back home," that was the last thing i said to him before turning on my heels and walking back inside hongjoong and i's shared dorm. as i shut the door, i let out a shaky sigh. i really need to break up with him soon... i've had this thought for a while. i see all the stop signs and the red flags about sungjoon, but i'm always hesitant to leave him. there's a constant fear that he wouldn't like it if i wanted to leave him.

memories from yesterday flashed through my mind as i zoned off into space.

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flashback
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after a few minutes, i started to pull myself together as the tears stopped dropping from my eyes. but i noticed, i never heard the front door open. the only door i heard open was the one to our bedroom. that's when i looked up to see sungjoon staring down at me. why didn't he leave??

i wasn't sure what was happening. he always leaves after our arguments... so why is he standing in front of me right now?

i wish the answer to that question never came.

soon enough, sungjoon pushes my back against the covers, pinning my arms above my head. as he started kissing roughly down my neck, i released a yelp, "why are you doing this sungjoon... please stop," i whimpered. i didn't like this at all, but he didn't seem to care at all about how i felt.

"just shut up seonghwa... you deserve it after all. all the times i've had to deal with your bickering and complaining, don't you think you deserve this?" sungjoon angrily spat at me while unbuttoning the front of my shirt.

i begged him to stop, but he never did. eventually, i passed out; i couldn't handle it all.

end of flashback
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"woah! seonghwa! are you alright?? deep breaths okay? you're alright..." i snapped out of my thoughts once i heard hongjoong's voice and felt his presence. they made me feel safe if i'm honest. hongjoong makes me feel safe. seonghwa, this is ridiculous, you've known of this man for less than 24 hours... although this thought sounded through my head, hongjoong's hand rubbing on my shoulder definitely calmed me down. after a few minutes, i took in my surroundings and wiped my tears.

"i'm sorry. i don't know what happened, i didn't mean to burden you..." i quickly apologized to the shorter male, feeling bad that he's had to see me like this twice now. "seonghwa, why are you apologizing? it's okay, i don't mind at all— and you'll never be a burden. ...did you wanna talk about it?" the hesitance in his voice was audible; that made me so happy to hear him being so careful with me; it was as if he was treating me like a porcelain doll. "i... i don't think i do, at least not at this moment. i'm sorry hongjoong, but thank you so much for helping me," i paused. i needed to repay him, so an idea clicked in my head. " how about i buy us lunch? as thanks, and maybe to help us get to know each other better?" the raven-haired's ears perked up like a dog at the mention of food. bingo.

"i'll gladly accept that offer... how about we eat now and i can help you with your stuff when we get back?" the shorter asked with a smile.

"deal."

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i hope this chapter was okay !! i've been writing drafts for this book pretty often, so i'll try to update as much as possible !! 🫶🏼

— iya 🌼