Do you ever notice how you never get
acknowledged for the hard work you do, yet
you get acknowledged for the wrong you do?
Your parents don't say, "Great job on those
good grades. I'm so proud of you!" And if they do,
it's always accompanied by a, "But make sure you
talk to your teacher to get that 'C' up."
Say your report card comes in and you have bad grades.
They look at it, then look at you with a disappointed look.
"Your grades are bad. Why? You were doing so well."
You just sit there, and eventually say, "I don't know."
Only, I don't know isn't what you're thinking.
What you're thinking is, 'Maybe I'm hurting.
Maybe I just don't have the energy to act okay
and keep my grades up. Maybe I'm not good at
that class. Maybe I'm stressed and the way I
deal with it is, not do my work or pretend not
to care.'
I just hate that parents assume that we aren't doing
well in school or in anything else because
we simply choose not to. Sometimes that's the
case with some kids, but not every reason for us
failing at something is because
we choose not to put effort in.
Parents often say that we have no one
to but ourselves. And although that may be true,
we don't need that constant reminder, especially
if we struggle with things like self-hate.
Honestly, it pisses me off. Someone who struggles with
self-hate already blames their self for even things
that they had no control over. So, imagine them
blaming them self for things that they do have control
over. And then multiple people constantly saying,
"You have no one to blame but yourself."
Like holy shit. I know I have no one to blame
but myself. Please just shut up. You aren't helping
with anything. You are just making things worse.
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Sense of Exile
Poetry'Exile refers to the state of being barred from one's native country. It represents a profound sense of loss and separation, impacting identity and belonging.' I hope you feel less alone here.
