Saviour Complex (ser harwin strong)

Chpt 11: Illicit Affairs

Harwin and i sat in the tent for hours just talking to one another. It had been so long since i had actually enjoyed a conversation that wasn't with Ser Criston or Rhaenyra.

"And then the maester walked inside and asked if-" i began to say but was cut off by Harwin standing up from his seat.

I slowly turned around to see king Viserys standing weakly behind me. "Your grace" i said as i stood up quickly. "Azalea... Have em... Have you seen... Have you seen Rhaenyra?" he slurred.

He obviously has indulged in to much wine. "I have not, your grace. Would you like help finding her?" i asked. "No... She's fine... She's fine" he said unsure of his words.

I noticed Viserys looking me up and down as i began getting uncomfortable. "Azalea. You and Daemon have been married for what... Three years now? Have you not been blessed with a child yet?" he asked.

My mouth fell open. "Your grace... Daemon and i have... He's... He has been at the Step Stones fighting if you don't remember" i said. "Yes but did you not consummate your marriage at least once?" he questioned.

I opened my mouth to speak but no words came out. "Your grace. Maybe you would like to find your wife whilst Miss Azalea finds her sleep?" Harwin said putting a hand on the man's shoulder.

I let out a sigh of relief that i did not have to answer that awkward question. "Yes. Perhaps your right, Ser Harwin. I will see you tomorrow, Azalea" Viserys said as i gave him a weak smile.

"Thank you" i mouthed to Harwin as he gave me a small nod. Harwin helped Viserys stand up straight as i found my chambers.

I changed into my night gown and laid down in my bed. I tried to get some sleep but it was of no use. I tossed and turned for hours. All i could think about was what everyone was asking me.

"Have you laid with prince Daemon yet?"

"Have you been blessed with any children?"

"How is your marriage?"

It irked me that everyone believed they had a say in my marriage. But it was not the only thing on my mind. I tried to fight it but somehow Harwin was also playing in my mind.

I wondered why the man was so nice to me. Why he always wanted to talk to me. Why he was not asking me the same questions everyone else did.

Why he was constantly there when i needed him most.

I rolled my shoulders back and took a deep breath in and out. I needed to keep my head straight. I couldn't let my late night thoughts ruin everything my father has given me.

....

But what if i didn't? For the past three years, i have attended every ball, treated everyone with the highest regard even though they didn't give me that in return and tried to be the perfect maiden. But it hasn't given me anything in return.

What if i did something for myself? Everyone in the kingdom has expected me to lay with my husband... But he is not here. And he may never return.

A small smirk escaped my lips as i got out of my bed. I grabbed my night gown and ran to the door. But as i opened it, i took a step back.

I was faced with Harwin who was already inches away from my door. "Miss Azalea" Hariwn mumbled. I opened my mouth to speak but no words came out.

"Hi" i mumbled with a hint of surprise. Suddenly, Harwin gently grabbed the back of my neck and kissed me deeply. I pulled out of the kiss as a wave of guilt washed over me.

"If you wish me to leave, i'll leave" he whispered into my neck. I shook my head. "I don't... I don't" i said as i pulled him back into the kiss.

I ran my hands through his hair as i smiled in between kisses. Even though the thought did not play my mind often, it felt as if i had been waiting for this for so long.