I hate school I hate it so much the art above represents me just about every other day. I can't always be happy no matter how hard I try everything hurts me. You yell at me I'm crying. You argue with me I'm crying. I made you feel a certain way I'm crying. Not to manipulate never! But because everything genuinely hurts me. I'm a weak person I'm a weak female. Many people tell me you're such a nice person and you're very strong. Well guess what I'm not and I can't take it anymore it's stressing me out and. I don't mean the unthinkable like what you are thinking. But I do feel awfully sad and mad about going to school coming home. It's just like I'm bored of everything eating, sleeping, watching tv, art, singing, homework! All of it and I just wish for one of moment that everyone would just shut up!
But that's not how the world works :). And I understand that but sometimes it feels like everything is out of my grasp like I'm gonna fail school, fail my parents, fail my friends and fail my dog. It plagues me like a bug constantly bitting but I can't fix it. And I want people to help I do but it makes me more nervous and scared to ask for help rather than ranting and pretending none of this ever happened and I'm the most normal happy person ever. People tell me I can't run from my problems forever. Well I sure as heck am I gonna run for as long as I can.
Now back to my topic. School I hate it why must I go to a place with so much negativity that if it was a person it would weigh over 500 pounds! The teachers expect so much from me. The students constantly ridicule and insult me to my face and from behind. The counselors are only there to tell your parents about what you tell them and make you feel like you can't trusts anyone. Damn I don't even know who my real friends are anymore. All my friends there drifting away and I'm not ready to let go but i think they are. I try so hard to please everyone but I'm the end my mistakes will always cost more than my good actions. I will always remember no matter how smart, nice, and compassionate I am people will always look for the bad sides to me. And then I will never be worthy to them or of them. And they soon too will leave like the rest do because they always do.
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Thank you for allowing me this rant let me tell you this meant a lot to me. Please just keep this between us and whoever reads this
-sincerely a mentally distraught girl from America
