complicated ~ c.d [on hold]

kiss ~ c.d

        *the morning after*
I woke up in the morning to see that I was back home, but instead of being in my bathing suit I look down and see a shirt that I remember being cameron's I blush and think about what had happened at the beach, I feel little butterflies in my stomach and smile faintly touched my lips with the tips of my fingers gently. I start to wonder why was I wearing cameron's shirt? I decided to text him.
New iMessage to : cameroooon :)
any reason why I'm wearing your shirt dude?
New iMessage from: cameroooon :)
oh don't worry alex changed you into my shirt because she was too lazy to find pajamas for you. I didn't see anything promise :)
New iMessage to: cameroooon :)
oh okay thanks I guess
New iMessage from cameroooon :)
you're welcome beautiful.
I blushed and locked my phone getting up to take a shower, I took a long warm shower taking the sand out of my hair and washing my body so it wouldn't smell like the familiar salt. I got out and changed into some aeropostale shorts and a tank top, I ran downstairs and looked at the clock 10:30 a.m I groaned realizing it's Sunday and I know I have to go to school tomorrow "why the grumpy face" hayes questions "I don't want to go to school loser." "no one does" he huffs and I snort a small laugh jumping onto the couch next to him and nash.
  after a while of watching sponge bob I get tired, "ohhh my gooooodddd we need to do something right now being a lazy ass is no fun guys!!!" I groan "shut up if you wanna do something go to cam's house and ask alex." nash retorts. I look at him offended "no one loves me here." I stomp out the house and climb into a random window at cam's house because I was too lazy to open the front door.
  it was awkward finding cameron using his computer with head phones on not even knowing I just climbed through his window. I stood there in shock realizing I climbed through the wrong window to scared to move, I hear him whispering lyrics to a song, I can't quite understand what he's saying because he's whispering so low. I slightly move backwards but of course trip over his bed and of course screaming, so while I'm falling screaming and failing at life I see cameron get scared so badly he falls off his chair and his headphones go flying, I couldn't help but break out in fits of laughter while I laid there like an idiot. when I open my eyes and stop laughing I see cameron smiling but confused, I immediately remember that, 1) I'm not supposed to be in here, 2) this is embarrassing as hell. my eyes widen and I begin to apologize "oh my gosh cam I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to, I swear I was just gonna go through a random window and go to alex's room I didn't know this was your room." by now I'm rambling and falling over my words stuttering like crazy making a complete fool of myself.
  I sigh and look up seeing a amused smile on his face. "why are you smiling." I asked creeped out "because you're gorgeous when you're all flustered." he simply states. I look at him and smile my face turning a slight red "well I'm I should go to alex now, um sorry for scaring you." I whisper "it's fine, at least I got to see the amazing smile and hear your beautiful laugh." he's blushing now and I'm surprised. why is he blushing? does he actually like me, I mean he's been calling me beautiful and saying all these amazing things to me, we've kissed before, but I didn't think it was all real.
  I get up and hold my hand out to help him up. I look in his eyes and see him leaning in, I want to but for some reason I feel like I can't. I pull away, "um sorry for the trouble yeah see you later." I awkwardly state, I walk out the room face palming myself because I just practically rejected cameron even though I didn't want too. this is all so confusing and I don't understand what's happening to me it's never been like this and now it's here, the butterflies, the kisses, the cute names. I didn't want it to end but some how felt like I wasn't meant for cameron. no he deserves a gorgeous girl who's kind and would give him all that he needs, that's not me, it will never be me. once I get to alex's room I see her knocked out on her bed so I climb in next to her and decide to take a nap with her. I just felt like I needed to get away for a while. before falling asleep I think about him and how this could end, heartbreak? or we fall in love?

hi lol I updated cuz I got bored and realized how long it's been since I've been on here :)