A Book Of RoyalChaos

~Sorry~

Anthony's POV

I did it again. This time I couldn't do anything about it which made me upset. Ferrous at myself. I can't help the fact that I can remember. Well this time I did it. I called out Steven one more time. He stopped walking. I tried yelling sorry with all the strength I had left. But I started to choke on my own tears. Steven came towards me.

"No. How can you say you love me when you can't even remember? You say you'll change but you never do. Its always the same with you Anthony and I can't take it anymore." he said. He started to turn around. I grabbed his shoulders but he shook lose.

"Please Steven I just... I need another chance." I mumbled through the hot tears and my burning eyes.
"I have given you enough chances. You can't even remember when we got married!" he yelled with his anger.
"Yeah I can. Its uh May 17th 2017..." I started but stopped. That wasn't right. Nothing is right.
"Wrong. We got married in August 16th 2016." he said. "You probably don't even remember How I asked you out or how you proposed to me either." he said.

I felt everything in my body to numb. At this point he should leave. So I can die knowing he'll be happy with someone else.

"Steven, I can't express how sorry I am. But... If you rather go away and find someone else. I just... I just want you to be happy and if that means I'm not the one. Than I'll just leave." I said. In the back of my head I could hear suicidal thoughts. I tried tuning them out but nothing was working. When I finally looked at Steven he looked shocked. Breath taken by what in just said. "Anthony... I don't want to leave you but..." he stopped.

Stevens POV

I wasn't mad at Anthony. I was being selfish. I AM being selfish. I've been trying to make it look like he left me. God why did I meet him. I've been having an affair behind my own husband's back. He can't help that he forgets. One car crash and he has trouble remembering and here I am trying so desperately hard to make him leave for him.

From what I heard from Anthony made me stop and think about what the he'll was I doing. Without even telling my body what to do I clasped into Anthony's arms.

"Anthony... This isn't your fault.... Its mine... I've... Ice been having an affair...." I stopped. The words escaped my mouth. I looked at him face.

"Who. Who has been touching you and using you?" he asked. Using? I never looked at it that way. I remained silent. "You enjoyed it. Didn't you? And all this time... It wasn't me, it was YOU!" he yelled.

"It's Craig." I studderd. He stopped. "Really? You prefer a screwed up brit, over your own Italian boyfriend? Who took a blow from a car crash for you. Who has been there for you. Who has done everything in his power to protect you? You slut. How dare you sleep with another man then blame me." he said.

"I'm sorry!!" I yelled. Tears streaming down my face. My eyes burning and my face throbbing. "Its okay Steven... Unlike you, I'll forgive you." he said sounding calmer. I look at him and crashed right into him. Why did I do this? What convinced me to cheat on my husband? Unlike you. Those two words burned throughout my head like a demon.

"How? After what you found out and everything?" I said. He looked at me. I closed my eyes, draining the tears from them. "Because I love you. Even if you broke my heart." he replied. I felt a warm pair of lips touch my forhead in an extremely gental and caring way. I heard thunder, as it began to rain.

Because I love you. He still loves me? Even after I tried to make him leave? I'm not the one trying, rummaged through my head as it tried to escape through my mouth. When Anthony looked at me for some type of salvation, I blurted out "No! It's my fault! I stopped trying after the crash and... I got hurt. I got hurt, because I lied to you."

"I know Steven. I understand that. I really do. I love you." he said. I looked at him. I moved closer to him. I placed my rainy, yet warm, lips on his. Surprisingly to me, he accepted. I didn't go too depth into the kids though. I would seem like a douchebag whore if I did. I gently removed my lips from his, as I craddled myself in his arms.

"I love you too Anthony." I replied.

*Authors Note: I would like to say I'm sorry for the long ass break. I'm deeply sorry. Some family and school have gotten in the way (not to mention a writer's block as well) so I haven't been too good lately. I hope you understand. I'm thinking about writing on Friday's and Saturdays and posting on Sunday's and Wednesdays. Like I said, I'm deeply sorry. I haven't gone away, I promise. Just... Problems in life you know? Well later. :)*