Until You Found Me - A YoonKook Story

Chapter Ten - Let's Start Again

Yoongi's Pov:
   I lay on my bed, exhausted from the day. I wrote a ton of notes since my teachers wouldn't stop talking. I turn on my phone and see Taehyung texted me once again.
I should get rid of the habit of ignoring him, but dealing with him is so exhausting. All he does is make me cry. His text read "Why do you always ignore me for a day? Seriously Yoongi I'm so tired of this!" "Please forgive me, you're honestly so exhausting to keep around!"

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean that message. I just don't understand why you won't forgive me, or I did wrong!" "Please don't leave me Yoongi, let's just restart. Let's go back to before I said anything. I deeply do miss you, please don't ignore me anymore." I sigh, having no option but to give in to his demands.
Can I do this though? If I want to restart with him, I can't put my guard down. I can't allow myself to get hurt again.

I kick my blankets, feeling frustrated. Should I talk to Jungkook about this? I sit up and bite my lip, thinking of what's worse to happen.
Wait- I trust Jungkook. His roommate is with him at the moment though- would it be weird if I request to talk to Jungkook himself? No? I don't think so. Let's go then!
I change out of my school outfit and switch into comfortable clothing. I leave my room and go into his room. "Jungkook! I need to talk to you." I say as I walk over to him. "Oh? Just me?"

He wraps his arms around my waist, pulling my body close to his face as he sits on the bed. I try to remove myself, and he holds onto me closely. "You heard that, skedaddle Marcus. Get on out of here." Marcus rolls his eyes. "I'll give you guys five minutes, make it quick." I stick my tongue out at Marcus and he closes the door once he leaves.
   I remove myself, and he looks up at me. "Yeah? What is it?" he says with a smile. I pout a bit and take out my phone, reading out the messages from Taehyung to Jungkook. I notice while I'm talking, his smile fades slowly.

I pace a bit, back and forth. "So, I thought of a plan, and since you're the only person I talk to about him, I need your intake on this." Jungkook crosses his arms while he watches me and smiles. "Oh yeah? I'm the only person you talk to about your boyfriend? Do others know that you have a boyfriend?" I stop moving and look at him.

"Jungkook, this is not the time, I'll answer any questions later but for now, hear my plan out," I say. "Alright~ go on ahead, I'm listening," he says while he sits back, leaning on his arms and man spreads.
"It must be serious if you can't answer my three questions~" I softly glare at him. "Jungkook, I will burn you at the stake." He laughs. "Fiesty~ just how I like them." I glare at him once again. "If you don't stop-" "or what?" he quickly says and gets up.

He walks towards me, with a smirk. I back up, unable to say a word. Shouldn't I be focusing right now? My back hits the wall, and his arms trap me on the wall. "Oh come on, tell me what you'll do~" I want to smack him- why can't I smack him?
I can't move either! He is attractive- no stop yourself Yoongi! This is what he wants! Do not fall for his looks or games! "I'll beat you up" I reply, trying to maintain eye contact.

"You can't even maintain eye contact with me, how will you be able to beat me up?" I look at him and internally panic inside. This is not easy. I push him off immediately. "We gotta focus Jungkook!" I say, and put my hands on my hips; trying to look dominant.
He starts laughing while covering his face. "I'm so sorry... it's just that you look so cute right now..." I gasp, and all of my hard effort to seem higher than I am goes to waste. "N-No I don't!" I say, feeling embarrassed and covering my face as well.

After a few minutes, Jungkook sits back on his bed and says "let's get to it then, I'll hear your plan so go ahead." I grab his desk chair and sit on it. "Finally, thank you. So I was thinking, I should oblige to his demands-" I see his hand go up.
"You said you'll hear my plan," I say as I softly glare at him. "I just wanted to say I don't agree with you just agreeing to his demands, you can't just pretend as if nothing happened without talking about it! If you're still hurt by his words, try talking to him about it.

"As he stated, he doesn't know what he did wrong, so you can start there to fix it." I gasp. Jungkook is so smart? "Huh, actually listening to you say that now, it makes sense. I didn't even think about it like that- wait." I say, trailing off as I think of Taehyung's reaction if I were to execute that plan.
"What if he begins to argue with me again? I already know- wait what if he begins to overreact by saying something like "why are you picking at my actions?" Jungkook squints his eyes while looking at me. "If he honestly does that, that's very stupid because you'll just be answering a question he asked.

"Suddenly when you tell him the truth he's offended? Make it make sense. If he ends up acting like that, I already can tell there's nothing he can offer you but pain and trauma." I put my head down and sigh. "I can't just leave him though... he's still my boyfriend."
Jungkook sighs and replies "I didn't say anything about leaving him, and neither did I tell you to. I'm just warning you that if he's toxic, and if you can't work through it with him, it will only get worse from here on out."

"Honestly Jungkook, I was going to say that I'll pretend as if nothing happened, but I won't let my guard down around him, and keep it moving you know?" Jungkook shakes his head.
"That plan is no good. It's only burying your pain, and that pain can grow stronger to make you lash out at him or hold grudges against him.
"It also makes the ability to speak up for yourself harder if he were to hurt you again. You'll grow tired of the pain he's inflicting on you, therefore having a weaker base to stand upon."

I cover my mouth. "You're right Jungkook, thank you!" I get up and pat his head. "I'll go talk to him right now-" he cuts me off before saying "how about calling him?" Jungkook asks. "I'll be here for emotional support. Go ahead and tell him how his words have hurt you."
I grab the chair again, roll it over to where he is and sit in front of him. "Let's go for it then."