Sing To My Heart

Part 24: Past scars

*Waring triggering/disturbing tropics throughout this whole chapter; skip if need to*

3rd Person POV

You exhale as you look into Johnny's eyes.

"Porsha and I have different mothers. Porsha's mothers was actually my dad's wife while mine was an affair with one of his employees. So you can imagine, Porsha's mom got pissed and divorced him about five years later. This made me the targeted child while Porsha was the favorite. My mom died a little less than a year after the divorce and that's when my life went to shit."

You tighten your arms around Mount as Johnny looks at you with soft eyes.

"I couldn't go a week without being yelled at and or hit by my dad. I'd honestly be lucky if I went more than two days without him doing anything to me. He'd occasionally yell at Porsha but he never laid his hands on her. He also actually somewhat tries to protect her. After all, I was harassed by one of those gang members that tried to rob the theater a few years ago and my dad didn't do anything until the gang member started to call him names."

You then lifted up your shirt to reveal the scar on your hip. Johnny's eyes widen at the sight of it. He raised his hand to touch it but quickly stopped himself. You noticed and grabbed his hand and gently placed it on the scar. You gently caress it as he looks at you for the explanation.

"This happened after he got really drunk. He threw a bottle at a wall and a piece of glass stabbed me. His only words were that 'You better not get any blood on the carpet'. And for the scars on both my wrists now, you saw that they are self-inflicted."

You felt some tears form but you did your best to hold them back since you really didn't want to cry any more.

"And what's the story behind Kaden," Johnny said as he touched the side of your face.

"I met him a few months after my mom died. We actually kind of got along but then my dad mentioned that I was going to have marry Kaden since the Kickenklobers are a big name in show business. That is when my relationship with Kaden went south. He started acting how he does now and even a bit more pushy and almost harrassy with me despite how young we were."

Johnny felt his blood boil a bit at the mention of how Kaden treated you. He then tries to ignore it as he's main focus was on you but he was going to keep that information for the future.

You start to get a bit nervous as you were a bit hesitant to share this part but you told him you'd tell him everything. And you meant everything. You took a deep breath as you grabbed his hand. He looks at you and rubs his thumb on your hand.

"There's one more thing you should know."

He looked at you with a face showing he's ready to listen. You take a deep breath in and out as you prepare your words.

"I tried to killed myself back when I was around 10 or 11 but my best friend saved me. The funny but sad thing is that to this day, she doesn't know she saved me. She was also the one who told me to leave this city and start to the Masked Diva persona. She also showed me how to truly dance and is the reason behind my dancing."

You saw Johnny's eyes widen as you mentioned you tried to commit suicide. He waits for you to finish as he hugs you. He sniffs a bit as a few tears escape him.

"I'm so sorry you had to go through that Love."

You felt a bit shocked by his words since nobody has ever said something like that to you in a sincere tone before.

"I promise you, nobody will lay a finger on you while you are by my side."

You hug him as a few tears escape you as well. You left a big weight released from you as it felt good to finally tell someone. To just finally tell Johnny. You always wanted to tell him but you were scared of how he would react. But you were glad that he was still comforting you.

"Thank you Johnny. I love you so much."

"I love you too y/n"

You two slowly let go as you wanted to get cleaned up before the others showed up. You get up and Johnny looks at you, wiping the few tears that escaped him.

Johnny POV

I can't believe she went through all that. Now everything finally made sense. Her freak out at the auditions, her attitude around Mr. Crystal and how she knows that bastard son of the weirdo. Poor y/n. We practically forced her to come back to her horrible past. She hid some much behind that lovely smile on her face. She did it for us. She is so incredible. I want to, no, I need to protect her. But to be honest, what I want the most right now is to punch that asshole of a father of hers in the face. And also I'd save a punch on Kaden just for how he treats me and now that I know what he did and is doing to y/n. I want to punch him even more.

3rd Person POV

You were done with your clean up and you helped Johnny to the couch as his body was still aching. He sits down and you go grab the music since he left them in the room. You put on a sweater to hide the bandages as you grab both your guy's music. You make your way back to the couch and hand Johnny his music. You sit next to him and lean against him. He wraps his arm around you as you look over your duet together.

"Hey Johnny."

"Yes Love?"

"I saw a skate shop in the plaza when we first got here. Can we go check it out tomorrow before practice?"

"Sure. We can also get a treat. I heard there's a dinner in the plaza that has a really interesting sundae, smoothie thing."

"Yeah that sounds good."

You two share a kiss as you hear the door opening. You pull away as you see Menna and Ash walk in. You two greet them and they greet them back. Ash goes to the kitchen area as Menna approaches you two. She sits across from the little coffee table in front of you two.

"Hey guys, um I know this is a weird question but um, what does being in love look like," Menna asked. She was clearly embarrassed that she had to ask that.

You and Johnny shared a confused look.

"Um, I don't exactly know how to describe it," you said as you tried to think of an answer.

"Really? I mean, you two have always had that look. Even before you guys started dating, you guys always had that look when you guys did as little as mention each other's name. I thought you two would know how to help her," Ash said as she opened a can of soda.

Your cheeks get a bit red as you rub the back of his neck.

"Well I guess it's just that when you think of the person, you get happy and can't get them out of your head. They might make you feel a bit nervous but they just make you so happy. So I guess you just need to look at the person with a smile and soft eyes," Johnny says, just trying to help.

"Why don't you two show her," Ash says as she takes a sip of her soda.

You and Johnny looked at her as she just smirks at you two. You sigh as you look back at Johnny. He then lifts your chin a bit with his finger as you two just stare at each other. You felt your face warm a bit as you just looked at each other with soft smiles on your faces.

"Now that's love," Ash says as she joins Menna's side.

"It really is. But I can't fake that," Menna says as she lets out a groan.

You turn your attention to Menna who's on the verge of freaking out. You reach over as you place a hand on her shoulder.

"Hey it's okay Menna. I'm sure things will work out with you," you said trying to reassure her.

Johnny gives her a thumbs up and Menna lets out a sigh. She thanks you guys but you can tell she doesn't really have faith in herself as she heads to the kitchen with a frown.