I Wonder

Chapter 18

TW: rape

A year passed and many things happened. Lena had moved in with Björn and was trying to persuade him to marry her. Björn refused because he was still madly in love with Agnetha but for Lena, he was just 'waiting for the right time to marry her'.

Agnetha had finally moved on and had a new boyfriend. His name was Torbjörn Brandner, he worked as bodyguard for ABBA when they toured through North America and Europe in the second half of 1979.

Now were ABBA again on tour. This time they visited Japan.

Agnetha's fear of flying went worse when they - Benny, Frida, Agnetha and the crew - nearly crashed with a plan over Boston before a concert. They still performed (who forces somebody in that situation to go on stage?). The night afterwards was one of the worst for Agnetha ever. She was having a bad panic attack and even threw up. Although all of those things, wanted Stig still for her to perform. He was almost hammering to the door of Agnetha's hotel room which she didn't want to open. He didn't gave up until a doctor told him that Agnetha couldn't perform because she was mentally a wreck and was having over 40 °C fever. The tour went on, only one concert was being cancelled but nobody really cared about Agnetha. Frida was having a crisis with herself and tried her best to support Agnetha but also needed to cope with her own struggles. Benny did whatever and Björn was too busy with Lena who went with them on tour. That was also the time when Agnetha and Torbjörn got closer. He cared about her and she needed somebody she could clung to. He never complained when he woke up at night - he was sometimes sleeping over at Agnetha's house (mostly when Linda and Christian were with their father) - by Agnetha screaming because she was having another nightmare.

The truth was, Agnetha didn't want to go on tour at all. The only reason why she went on tour were the facts that they traveled to Japan per plane, stayed at one hotel in Tokyo and drove with a train to the concerts in other cities.

The tour was nearly done. Only one concert in Tokyo was left. Agnetha was in the wardrobe getting her hair ready when Torbjörn walked in. "Hej Agnetha"

"Darling" Agnetha kissed him and made Frida who was sitting on the other side of the room turn her face aways in disgust. "Should I leave you two lovebirds alone?"

"Bitch" exclaimed Agnetha.

Frida wanted to reply something but was being interrupted by Torbjörn before she could even start. "Benny send me to tell you that the rehearsal will start in five minutes."

"Fine, we will come in a few minutes." Frida send him away.

They went to have the soundcheck. After the soundcheck were Benny and Björn discussing something while Agnetha and Frida were dancing together. They looked a lot like a couple and exactly in that moment entered Torbjörn the stage. He stared at them for a second.

"Aggie, your prince is there." Frida whispered before they stopped dancing.

"Darling!" Agnetha exclaimed before she kissed him.

"Hej sweetheart. I need to leave. How about we meet after the concert in your hotel room?" Torbjörn suggested.

"That's fine."

"Good luck for the concert." After kissing Agnetha goodbye left Torbjörn.

"What was that?"

"What do you mean?" Agnetha turned around to Frida.

"You know what I mean." Frida replied. In her opinion was Agnetha's boyfriend acting suspicious.

"I don't know. I guess he is having his reasons." Agnetha answered and left Frida stand alone.

When Agnetha came to her hotel room after the concert was Torbjörn standing in the hallway waiting for her.

"Hej darling. Give me a moment to unlock the door."

Agnetha opened the door and entered followed by her boyfriend the room.

"Is everything fine?" Agnetha asked after she realized that Torbjörn was acting odd.

"What did you do?" His voice sounded angry.

"I don't know what you mean." Answered Agnetha while she started taking her costume of.

"You know exactly what I mean. Do you love her?"

"Who?" Agnetha looked at him confused and stopped undressing.

"That red haired snake." Torbjörn was getting angrier.

"You mean Frida?" Agnetha started to laugh. "No, why do you think that?"

"Don't tell me lies I can see that! You two are always so close. Does Björn and Benny know that?" Torbjörn was now screaming at her.

"Darling, please. I don't feel like arguing now. There is nothing going on between us. You are the only person I love." Agnetha tried her best to calm him down.

"If it is that way, prove it to me."

"What do you mean." Asked Agnetha milliseconds before Torbjörn started grabbing her breasts.

"Please, stop that. I don't feel like it now." Said Agnetha after she realized what her boyfriend wanted to know. 

Torbjörn just ignored Agnetha's protest and continued what he was doing.

"Torbjörn, let me alone. I don't want to have sex with you!" Agnetha tried to defend herself.

"You should have thought about that earlier." Torbjörn started undressing Agnetha.

"Help!" Agnetha started to scream out of fear.

"Shut up or it won't do your children any good!"

Agnetha immediately stopped screaming she was even more afraid when he fully undressed her and started kissing her. She just let it happen, trying not to scream out of fear and pain.She trie to think about something nice. She remembered the night they arrived. She was sitting in the hotel bar. After drinking a few glasses of wine entered Björn. He was also drunk and they started talking with each other. She had no idea what they had talked about. The next thing she knew was that she woke up by the sound of a phone ringing. Frida had called her because she wanted to know if Agnetha knew were Björn was. While she thought and looked around the room appears a well known man in her view. Björn. He was laying on on the bed next to Agnetha. At some point was it too much for her and she screamed because the pain was too intense for her. Tears were running down her cheeks and she was as afraid as the time they nearly crashed with the plan a half year before.

At the same time were Björn and Benny walking down the hallway. Björn had needed someone to talk. He had had a huge argument with Lena who was also on tour with them. She was still angry after he had 'spend a night with Benny at the bar' and they started fighting. In the end broke they up. It came for Björn out of a sudden and he was talking with Benny about his thoughts when he heard a woman scream. he looked at Benny. The woman screamed again.

"That's Aggie!" Björn remembered that he was still having the spare key for Agnetha's room. he had no idea why but it was very helpful in that situation. He blocked the idea and stared in shock at that what was in front of Benny and him.

Torbjörn was lying on Agnetha on the bed. She was naked and he was only wearing a shirt. She screamed and it was obvious that she was suffering rape. Right in that moment.

When Torbjörn realized that someone entered he fastly got of Agnetha and started dressing himself.

Agnetha curled up in a ball and started crying even more. She was in pain she was afraid and just wanted someone she trusted to hug her. Björn.