28 July, Tuesday, 12:05
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"I think I might like Hyunjin but not as a friend, I think I might've caught serious feelings for him"
Felix was now in Jisung and Minho's dorm, all three in they're shared bedroom as Felix ranted about him feelings
"Finally. I thought I'd have to wait years upon years to hear those words come out of your mouth" Jisung let out, jokingly wiping away fake tears
"But do tell us how you realized" Minho said, leaning in with a sly smile on hus face
Felix was unsure of whether he should tell them the truth because Minho is Hyunjin's closest friend, obviously excluding himself from first place
But he needed opinions on what to do nonetheless so he took the risk
"Alot happened yesterday night but luckily he came and helped me before anything got extreme and concerning
There was one point in time where I woke up and I couldn't sleep, even if my life depended on it. And I guess he realized that only when he heard me speaking
We cuddled and he comforted me for an hour or so and it was super sweet of him, it almost made me cry again
But then while I was saying a bunch of shit about myself that he didn't approve of, he kissed me to shut me up"
"He kissed you?!" Jisung exclaimed, jumping up to his feet
"I saw it coming! I knew he had a thing for you!" Minho exclaimed, jumping up to his feet aswell
"I don't know about that but I sure do feel something for him" Felix said, sitting back on the couch
"So tell us about the kiss. Describe it to us in detail" Minho said, sitting down and pulling Jisung down with him
Felix thought for a second and turned pink in the face just by a memory of the feeling
"It felt gentle and sincere, like he had no intention of hurting me with it. It lasted longer than I thought it would but I wasn't complaining
His lips were so soft and tender, just the feeling of them on mine eased my mind. It felt like I was just kissed by an angel but that is exactly what he is
It felt like I just reached the peak of life, like I didn't have anything to worry about anymore. It was so comforting, so loving, so precious
I think I might have cried after he kissed me for the second time. I mean, I didn't know what to do with all the overwhelming emotions I was feeling
Just that kiss alone opened my eyes and now I see him a different way, a way I never thought I'd see him. I felt so loved
I'm so in love with Hyunjin that it hurts so much to be without him. It feels like I suddenly lost my will to live when he's not around, like I have no purpose in life
But when he's around I feel so loved. I feel like there is actually someone who wakes up and willingly wants to talk to me, wants to smile at me, wants me look at me, wants to laugh with me
It hurts so fucking much when he leaves me for Karina or when he's around Karina because I know that he likes her and I don't know if he even thinks about me when he's around her
Karina is a sweet person, she's such a nice and pretty girl that I won't even judge Hyunjin for liking her, she's the perfect girl
But I wish I were Karina for that reason. Although I only came to terms with my feeling recently, I always wished I was in her position because of the affection she'd get from Hyunjin
Hyunjin is just so irresistible. I can't go a day without smiling at the small things he does that gets my heart beating at a whole new pace
His smile is my everything, his words are my universe
Being in his presence is like floating in a sky of stars, I'd gladly risk the oxygen in my lungs for those few seconds of bright starry bliss (I'm crying </3)
I love the way his eyes turn into resting cresent moons when he smiles, the way he claps and throws his head back when he laughs
The way he tilts his head when he's confused, the way his mouth forms a pout when he chews his food, the way he squint his eyes when he eats
The way he dances so adorably when he eats, the way he crosses his legs when he sits, the way he runs his hand through his hair when he's frustrated
The way he looks when he's concentrated, the way he holds me when I cry, the way he'd whisper words of comfort into my ear when I'm at breaking point
The way he'd ask me if I've eaten each time he comes back to the dorm, the way he'd gift me a meaningful painting each time it's my birthday
The way he'd clean up after me when I fell asleep right after eating what I've baked, the way he'd bring me along whenever he'd see his parents
The way he'd spoil me with my favorite sweets when I'm having a bad day, the way he'd buy me jewelry when I'm at my lowest point in life
I love the way he appreciates me, the way he shows me that he needs me to live, I love the way he shows me that he loves me
I just can't deny it any longer, I am so in love and I'll say it as many times I need to for you to hear me correctly, I'm totally in love with Hwang Hyunjin"
Felix had finished speaking and lifted his head to see a teary eyed Minho, and an already crying Jisung
"I'm so sorry- I must've spoken too much. Forgive me, please" Felix apologize, avoiding eye contact with both the males
"Felix...you've done it"
"I'm glad...you're finally happy"
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Just wait until Hyunjin fucks it all up, or could it be someone else? Who knows
Thoughts??
Love youuuu
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