we meet again ¹ - the 5th wave

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it's the end of the fucking world. people die. people live. honestly us humans deserve what's happening in someways. we should've taken care of what we had instead of taking advantage of it. because we have nothing now. no family, no trust, no homes, most importantly no humanity. we were fucked up individuals and now we're getting what was coming to us for years.

although i miss my parents and brother. i have amélie and i need to fight for her. i will do whatever it costs. i'll kill. i'll trust. and i'll find my brother. i made a promise to my mom. that's exactly what i'll do. with tobi by my side i have a good weapon. rottweilers have a good ass grip when they bite. i just have to say one word and that persons out. my dog also knows how to deal with armed people. hide. sneak. attack.

cassie also being by our sides helped as well.

it was nightfall now and we built a little tent. "come on, it's time for you to sleep." i said tapping for amélie to lay down. tobi crawled between amélie and i. i couldn't sleep that night, thoughts flowed through my brain like a waterfall. dammit i just wanted it to stop.

just like i wanted the stupid assemblies in school to stop, or when tommy and amélie would argue over the dumbest things. all of that i wanted to stop, but now it's much bigger. i'd kill to go back to the way things were. to hearing our principal speak about anti-bullying in the school, which sure as hell didn't get through the people that shoved nerds heads down toilets or shoved them into lockers. sorry, are you reading this like what the hell that's not real life. and if you are, you're right. it's all in the movies. just like only in the movies people survive shit like this. but honestly people did shove the nerds heads in toilets, the locker thing was going a bit far.

but i would really kill to hear amélie and tommy fight over who gets to be batman and who gets to be robin. i hated it then, and i probably still would now if all of this didn't happen. and i know i'd still take everything for granted. i wish i hadn't, past lana makes present lana hate herself even more than before.

i know i think a lot but it helps, i mean i can't talk to amélie about it, she's too young. and i can't talk to cassie because she knows the truth but doesn't want to realize what's happening around her. it makes me want to take her stupid m16, put the barrel on her forehead and pull the trigger with a loud bang. but i'd never do it, i just imagine it.

i miss my parents, a lot. i mean you don't realize how tiring and worrying life is until your parents aren't in your life anymore. i still had two years until i was a adult to live on my own. i wasn't ready, no kid was. no matter how tough, no matter how smart, none of us were ready. we all miss our parents at least a little.

the next day us girls and tobi were on the move. we didn't go into cities or neighborhoods because there's always those insane people that have no humanity left in their bodies, but both of us were running low on tampons, and we needed more food. "my tummy hurts." amélie said in a low tone. i sighed, "shh." i shushed, "we're almost there." i whispered. cassie and i have been meaning to teach amélie to shoot a gun, because she was always unarmed and it made me feel eery. but we hadn't gotten to it quite yet.

once we got into town there was a gas station across the road. i looked around before grabbing amélie's hand and tightening my grip around the leash. "it's clear. let's be quick." i whispered to cassie. she nodded in agreement all of us ran across the street, our shoes hitting the concrete sounded so loud in my ears even though they weren't. our hearts were, thumpa — thumpa — thumpa. scared of bullets flying at us.

when we got to the gas station cassie put her hand out telling us to keep a lookout. amélie sat down on the warm curb in front of the gas station, i handed the leash to her demanding her not to let go. no. matter. what. i sighed as i kept my gun close to my chest looking all around me. not even three minutes later we hear a gunshot. "cass!" amélie exclaimed standing up.

i put my hand over her mouth dragging her to the side wall of the gas station not knowing if some sociopath killed cassie. "lana?" cassie's voice echoed through my ears. a sigh of relief escaped my chest. we turned the corner and once again we keep moving. both of us made promises, promises we had to keep. we needed our brothers. we'd get them.

the next morning i woke up, walked out of the tent, "cassie?" i called out not seeing her tent anywhere. "that bitch." i said under my breath. i knew i had to teach amélie how to use a gun. i knew it'd be a pain in my ass but if we wanted to survive i needed to teach her. but i'd have to find another gun before i even attempt it.

so i woke her up so we could get moving. after about two hours of moving we approached a small town. i made sure amélie was close to me tobi back in her palm.

we walked over to a cop car that was parked in-front of a house. "bingo." i whispered to myself. "hurry sissy." amélie begged, my fist collided with the window small glass shards were now in my knuckles. "shit." i said to myself shaking my hand before reaching in to unlock and then open the door. i reach over the dead cop that had a bullet hole in his forehead. i looked a little closer, it was fresh blood. "fuck." i whispered before grabbing a gun and some ammo.

a gun shot nearly hit amélie it had just missed her. "in the car!" i exclaimed. "what about tobi?" she asked, "him too go! go!" i exclaimed shoving her in. "get down." i demanded right before a pulling hit me in the gut. my breath hitched in shock. "sissy?" amélie cried out. i grabbed my stomach as i slammed the door. "stay the fuck down!" i shouted getting pissed. if cassie hadn't abandoned us we would've had her watching our backs. she's such a bitch.

i got down onto the floor before wiggling under the car. my head was pounding, and my stomach felt like it exploded. i hissed in pain as i scooted across the hard gravel. a rock cut the back of my neck slightly.

then i passed out, either to loss of blood or exhaustion, we'll never know i guess.