𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐁𝐎𝐘 || Kevin Alvarez

Chapter 9

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DIEGO

I was walking back but I couldn't help but have a goofy smile on my face. She seems so genuine, she's perfect for Kevin. I knew since the day Kevin started to act weird that he had someone in mind.

During practice he would just space out. And when I asked him about he would be all flustered, I knew there was a girl in his mind. And I'm not disappointed that it's y/n, she almost got me feeling some type of way.

Well okay I'm not gonna get ahead of myself, it might not be y/n, but they both have the same flustered look on there faces when I mention something like that. I put 2 and 2 together, though I might be wrong. Either way I need sleep as well.

I spent over 2 hours going over y/ns problems that I lost track of time. I laid down and went to sleep. I have school tomorrow and I might see y/n

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Y/N

After Diego left I re think-end my actions, I can't be getting flustered and nervous when Diego mentions another boys name that isn't Luis. To be fare no one knows about Luis, just my old friends. But it still hurts me to think about another guy. This is all too frustrating.

I need to stop being like this. I keep reminding myself I don't need a man that isn't Luis, though my body wants something different. I'm not quite sure what it is exactly. Maybe my body needs the touch by Luis's fingers around my waist.

Oh his lips against mine, his soft face. Is that what my body craved for? His touch? Or another man's? Why do I even feel this way? I've gone more than a week without a man's contact against mine, and I've been fine.

I shook away my thoughts and got out my phone, I went on Instagram to see Diego's friend request. I smiled softly to myself. I accepted it and scrolled through his profile.

It seems like his dating wise, he doesn't have a gf. He's a well built guy tho. I'll give him that. Then something crossed my mind. Why am I not getting flustered and nervous about Diego's body?

I got nervous about Kevin's. Why not Diego's? Is this proof that I like Kevin? Ugh. This is so confusing. And to be honest I should just go to sleep instead of thinking. I have a ton of questions. They will be answered one day. Just not today. Thinking is only gonna make it worse.

I turn off my phone and closed my eyes, I ignored my thoughts. And feel asleep.

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Y/N

"Y/n wake up!!" My mom shouted. I woke up and rubbed my eyes. I checked my phone to see it's 6:30 oh right I have school. I just wanted to sleep. I just want to lay back down and think- nvm I don't want to think.

It's only going to make my thoughts consume me more. And I don't want that, I just need to look on the bright side of things. Like maybe this will distract me from my thoughts. School.

I got up and stretched. I cracked my back and looked at my closet to see what I should wear. I was not prepared at all, and I hate myself for that because if I'm late then I am for real gonna commit suicide, okay maybe not to that extreme level. But I'll be sad that's for sure.

I looked and saw grey pants, they were Nike. I also found a black hoodie that was also Nike. I got on my black and white Jordan's,I looked at my desk to see a black champion backpack. I was dressed like a 'man'. But I don't want to dress overly fancy on my first day, one thing is I might get robbed. Oh shoot should I wear a different set then? My jordons are expensive! Oh who cares. I'll change my style tomorrow.