𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐁𝐎𝐘 || Kevin Alvarez

Chapter 15

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I woke up, I felt hands still wrapped around my waist. I looked down to see strong, vainy, hands on my hips. Kevin had me on his grip as he pulled me closer.

I felt myself blush, my heart rate rapid. I could hear my unsteady breathing. Then it hit me.

I couldn't remember what happened last night. Did we do something? Did we make out? Have sex? No, no right? We just met and we are already sleeping in the same bed! I mean I don't really mind it, even tho I should. I feel like I'm somehow betraying Luis.

Oh my gosh. The guilt. Why can't I forget that man? Here's not even in the same country, but I just can't get him out of my head.

Even tho we never established what we were, I felt like I was still apart of him. And now I'm over the country in a another boys bed, and God knows what we did last night.

What did we do last night? I woke up to a bad dream, went into his room. Laid down on his bed, I remembered his soft groan. But that's all I remember, hopefully we didn't do anything bad.

If we were too, I would want to remember.

I looked back down at my hips, I saw his hands In the same place. I took a second to look at his hands. The were perfect, vainy, long. Imagine all The- no,no,no no we don't want to think about that.

I felt a weird sensation Down there. But it was weird, I felt this just because of his hands. Just because of Kevin's hands I felt a sensation. I have never felt this way with Luis. What is wrong with me? I felt disappointed and disgusted by my body's needs.

You're so easy girl.

Yeah I get it, I was in a bed and I hadn't had sex before. My body was excited by this action, and also me and Luis never even made out before. I think my body just wants pleasure, it needs it. And by having a boy here pulling me in him by my waist, was not good.

Though I can control it, it's not like I was a female cat in heat. But it did feel like it.

To ease the sensation in between my legs, I slightly squeezed my thighs together. Oh my gosh this is disgusting. Imagine how my parents would think of this? This felt disgusting.

Imagine what Luis would think of this? I'm actually not sure what he would do. Maybe he Would try to ease my thoughts. Maybe he would try to please me. Oh my, my mind if filthy. Stop thinking like that!

I have never thought of someone in that way before. Let alone thought about my own boyfriend. But here I am, squeezing my thighs over and over again. But to be fair, it's not my fault my body hasn't had action before.

And also, embarrassing enough I'd never even touched myself before. Although I had thought about it. It just felt weird and disgusting to do that. What? Stop thinking about this. Just think about other things that are not about this!

But by squeezing my thighs, it only made it worse. Sure I was good at everything, just not about the human body and it's pleasure. I did pass my test about it, thinking about it why did they teach us this? Anyways I did pass my text about it. But it felt weird and wrong by doing so.

I stopped squeezing my thighs. And sighed, not satisfied. I felt movement, hopefully he was waking up. I didn't want to be here. But at the same time I did.

I felt the bed creek as I couldn't feel the warm hands covering up my hips. I slightly shivered, feeling coldness wash over me.

"Mmm, morning." His deep morning voice, oh my goodness. I am gonna faint. I squeezed my thighs and didn't let go. He couldn't see the action because it was under a blanket.