CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
My fists felt so tight and hard that I could punch a boulder into pieces.
I want to destroy everything.
Tila may katawan ng demonyo sa loob ko na pilit lumalabas para maghasik ng kadiliman. Bawat araw, oras at segundo ay mas lalo siyang lumalakas, nagsisigaw na pakawalan siya.
I have been seeing red and black, but I need to blink my eyes to focus. I need to think and plan.
Humigpit ang kapit ko sa frame ng bintana at lumingon sa sala kung nasaan ang mga kaibigan ko, nag-aabang sa susunod kong gagawin.
Their eyes were wary and alert, and with every move, I made them ready to leap to their feet and subdue me. They were treating me like a rabid animal that had escaped from the zoo, attempting to lure me, outwit me, and drag me back to the cage.
But I'm not some stupid freaking animal. I have a mission to clear. A devil to kill.
No, I can't just stay here. I can't just let him wander around after fucking and toying with me. No man has ever lived freely after making me cry. Calix will face harsher punishment. I wept for him for two fucking weeks!
He made me a fucking mess. He turned me into an unprofessional freak who doesn't show up to work, leading my friends to believe I'm cutting myself to death and needed saving and parental guidance to understand it was just a boy.
It angers me that I couldn't find the will to go back to work. It angers me that I wanted to rebel. It angers me that my friends worry about me and think I'm weak and emotionally wounded, like a teen experiencing her first heartbreak and unsure how to handle herself. It angers me that I shed tears on a man again.
And it infuriates me even more that I still wait for him, that I crave him. I missed him, and it's fucking damaging!
Huminga ako nang malalim at humarap sa mga kaibigan. Agad naputol ang mahina nilang diskursyon at tinuon sa akin ang buong atensyon. Mula sa gilid ng mata nakita ko pa ang kamay ni Priam na umabot sa tali na dala-dala niya. Inikot ko ang mga mata.
"I will not stay here," I announced, determined.
Nilagpasan ko ang mga kaibigan at nagmartiya sa kwarto ko. Hindi ko kailangang lumingon para makompirma na nakasunod si Ariadne.
"What are you doing?" she asked in panic when I started loading my clothes into a suitcase. I threw everything necessary and went to the bathroom to collect my toiletries.
Nang ipasok ko ang toiletry pouch sa maleta ay agad na inagaw ito ni Ariadne. Masama ko siyang tinignan.
"Give it back, Ariadne. I need to rush." Inagaw ko sakanya ang pouch pero mabilis niyang naitaas ang braso. Matangkad na ako sa 5'8 pero para pa rin akong dwende kasama siya. Idagdag pa na wala ako sa kalingkingan ng liksi niya.
"Where are you going?" she demanded, clutching the pouch and stepping back from me.
I sneered at her movement and stomped my boot on the floor. My frustration escalated, and I snapped.
"I'm going to give him some piece of my mind. Kung naisip niya na ganoon lang ako kadaling iwan, pwes makikita niya kung bakit hindi dapat niya ako ginagago!" Hayop siya. Humanda siya. Hindi niya alam kung anong klaseng halimaw ang pinakawalan niya.
Nararamdaman ko na, ang katinuan sa katawan ko na unti-unting nilalamon ng pait at poot. Higit pa ito sa una kong heartbreak sa lalaking trumaydor sa akin, sa sumunod na ginawa akong laruan, sa pangatlo na gusto lang manakit.
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