Don't Stand So Close (completed)

Chapter 15

Harry and I have the best relationship. I just know it. Besides the whole, keeping it a secret thing, it's perfection. We have the deepest connection and the best sex. I'm so completely in love with him that I feel nothing but joy even when I'm not with him. I can't be with him all the time but I'm elated to know he's mine, and I'm his.

I read the newest book Harry wrote. I was so excited to have a rough copy of what would be published before anyone else would. His writing is beautiful and the way he tells a story is so breathtaking. The book was about a man who falls in love with travel and winds up getting lost in the mountains during an excursion. Harry's a genius.

Starla's 21st birthday was on January 15th. It was a beautiful big party that Harry and Angela hosted together. It was strange seeing the two interact but now that I have, I see why Harry doesn't like Angela much. I wanted to strangle her half the time with the rude comments she kept making toward Harry.

The following month was Harry's birthday. He didn't want a party or anything but Starla and Paul and I and a few of Harry's closest friends went out to eat. After the dinner everyone went their separate ways but I went back to Harry's (obviously). I got him a jade cross necklace with a silver backing. I had it engraved with ...and you are one of the lights. The inscription is from a quote from Bram Stoker's, Dracula. The first book, along with The Beetle, that I read from Harry many years ago. The full quote goes: There are darknesses in life, and there are lights, and you are one of the lights, the light of all lights.

I didn't know what to get him in all honesty. It had to be something I could afford and frankly, the charm was expensive for me. I realize he got me a necklace charm with an inscription as well, and so I was kind of copying him, but I know Harry loves jewelry. He wears rings and he always wears his cross necklace. Sometimes he pairs the cross necklace with other charms so I felt this would be something he'd like. I also gave him a super sloppy blow job as soon as we stepped in his house and then later than night more sex, of course. I know he loved the jade cross, though. He nearly cried and wouldn't stop kissing my face after I gave it to him.

My new classes were great, and the schedule was even better. My first Monday class didn't begin until 11:00 AM and my last Friday class was over by 1:00 PM. I used as much of that free time as I could with Harry. Starla and I hung out a lot more too with my better schedule but she began to see Paul more and by March they were "boyfriend and girlfriend" official.

Paul never said anything more about New Year's Eve. We chalked it up to being paranoid.

For Spring break Harry flew out to New York City for a week for a lecture series and I hung out with Starla and my mom during that time. I also filled in at the restaurant so a couple of servers could have Spring break off. I hated being away from Harry but we spoke every night. I also hated that I couldn't join him at the conference to see the lecture. We needed to continue keeping everything on the downlow and it was beginning to take a toll on us. Mostly me. Keeping a secret like the one we were keeping was hard when all we wanted to do was share the news with everyone.

Still, Harry and I kept things magical. I never got bored of him and he always seemed to hang on my every word and couldn't get enough of me when we did see each other.

Over the summer we saw each other a lot. Way more than we were used to seeing one another but it never got old or too much. It was amazing. A few weekends spent together were with Starla. I didn't like being around Harry and not being able to hold his hand or kiss his nose and I hated lying to Starla and pretending nothing was going on.

By the time summer was over we'd gotten back into our normal routine of seeing each other over the weekends we weren't busy. Paul and Starla were very obviously ridiculously in love and they were the cutest couple on campus. Sickeningly sweet. I was jealous of Starla's relationship because she could just have a normal one. I didn't know when it would be okay to be open about being with Harry, if ever. The more I saw how lovely Starla and Paul's relationship was and how they could go out and do fun things together with all of our friends, the more I longed for that with Harry.