Force Love

KABANATA 14

I still remember when I was young I am always dream a happy marriage. When my Father decided of my marriage. I read a lot and search a happy ending of fixed marriage. Sobra akong naniwala na ang lahat ay matatapos sa masaya. I still remember the scene on the airport vividly. 

Twice na siyang nagmakaawa at humingi ng pagkakataon. I am afraid of giving him the chance. I thought we end this 5 years ago at ang malamang hindi pala ay nagbigay ng kakaibang takot sa akin. I want to forget everything and start a new life away to everyone. If he still love me I know He will understand this decision of mine. But knowing him I know how selfish he is, i heard from my lawyer that he doesn't want to sign the annulment paper I sent to him. 

His stubborn but I can't accept him again, Maybe I can forgive him...But still I don't want to feel again the trauma he caused on me. Hindi naging madali ang buhay ko doon, Nang makarating kami doon ay dala ko ang takot na sundan niya ako o ninuman sa kanila para saktan. I had a hard time copping up on the pain they caused...Physically and emotionally.

Everytime men approach me, I freak out and runaway. There's also a time when I thought I saw Pablo I passed out and shout when I woked up. I shout and cried a lot thinking his near and will take a revenge on me anytime.

I sigh and went for a run instead. Tumatakbo ako sa gawing parke ng Bgc, I look for the buildings and smile a bit. Kung dati ay wala akong layang gawin ang mga gusto ko. Ngayon ay alam kong meron na. Wala nang makakapanakit sa akin ng hindi ko pinahihintulutan.

Nasa malalim ako ng pag iiisip habang tumatakbo ng bigla ay muntik na lamang ako madapa sa nakita. Pablo was standing in the bench near me, at kung tutuloy ako sa pagtakbo ay doon ako patungo. Napailing ako at taas noong nilagpasan siya. Hindi ko siya pinansin at nagkunwaring hindi siya nakita.

"Pris---". Naputol ang tawag niya ng makitang hindi ko siya pinansin at nagpatuloy lang sa pagtakbo. 

Nang makalayo sa kanya ay nagpasya na akong umuwi sa tinutuluyang hotel. Kung bakit ba kasi naisipan ko pang tumakbo kaninang umaga ng makita ang view ng parke sa balcony ng tinutuluyan ko. Di yata ay mapipilitan na lamang akong gamitin ang sariling gym ng hotel. 

Pagkapasok sa suite ko ay agad kong dinial ang numero ng kaibigan ko. 

"Gosh! Le I am so worried. Finally! You called" Bungad agad sa akin ng kaibigan

"I am out for a run, Sorry". I smiled when I heard her chuckle. 

"Oh my! You were so busy huh." 

"Sorry! I just want to finish this as soon as possible." I sigh "He's been following me and begging Bella". I sat down on the sofa and focus on my best friend's reaction.

"So Don't tell me....bibigay ka na?" She asked 

"You know that I can't... beside I am decided to give Ethan a chance after this". 

"H-huh? O-okay". She answer

Ethan was Bella's guy bestfriend. I met him when Bella introduced me to her family. His 5 years older and a very good man. Nang ipakilala ako ni Bella sa kanya ay agad akong napalagay sa kanya. His warm and charming, kabaligtaran ni Pablo na sa unang tingin palang ay alam mo nang arrogante at hinding hindi mo mapapasunod sa nais mo. His dominant and so powerful, 

His been courting me for a year now. Nung una ay panay lamang ang palipad hangin niya sa akin. I am afraid to every man who's been trying to hit on me. Ethan is not an exception. But because he is Bella's friend unti unti ay napalagay ako sa presensiya niya. His always there sa mga hangout namin ni Bella, He even make an effort to work with me at my part time job. 

The flashback of his surprise on me freshly came back. He ask for an answer but I can't give him the "yes" his been waiting. I can't tell him the reason I also ask Bella to keep it... Luckily she did

But still he gave me the space to think... He let me runaway from him and for that I think giving him the answer was the right decision. After this I will tell him all about my past, I hope he will accept me after this.

"Hey are you still there?". Tanong ko sa kabilang linya ng maramdaman ang katahimikan ng kaibigan.

"Yeahhh! Ano nga yun?". Bella ask

"I said I will give Ethan a chance after this." I said to her and waited for her answer 

"Finally! H-He will be happy! I-Im S-sure of that". After a while she said it happily. 

I smiled and decided to end our call, I still need to freshen up and contact my lawyer to asked what will our next move. I badly want to end this.

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Author's Note

Sorry for a short update, I am still thinking for a nice ending of this. Meron na kasi akong next story on my mind na gustong i publish agad. Hope may magsupport nito and comment for my improvement. 

And also sorry sa typo and wrong grammar ☺️

Thank you all and have a nice day