Glass half full

Chapter 3

As soon as I pull up to the house and turn off the ignition Jodie is opening my door and tried dragging me out, I laughed "I've still got my belt on! Let me go"

"Never" Jodie climbed onto my lap sideways and laughed before shoving her head into my neck and giving me a hug. She held me and I reciprocated the hug as the tears began to over spill down my face. Jodie looked up at me after the tears started to hit her face and cupped my face and wiped away my tears with her thumbs whilst looking into my eyes like she's looking for something, when it seems like she's done searching I lowered my head onto her shoulder and she moved her hands and held my head.

I don't know how long we were just sat there in the car for but when Jodie's mum came out, she greeted me like old times and said that Jodie came outside 20 minutes ago so wanted to check on us. Jodie got off of my lap and out the car after undoing my seat belt and then pulled me out the car. Donna held her arms open for a hug and I fell into her embrace. "It's lovely to see you again Y/N, I just wish the circumstances weren't as sombre"

"Mum leave her alone, you know she doesn't like pity" Donna kept hold of me rubbing my back gently, "I know Jodie but Y/N needs a mothers love right now and she won't get that from Nicola" I couldn't help the humourless chuckle as I left her embrace and as if in synchronisation both me and Jodie said "your right about that". "It's really good to see you Donna, definitely been a while but your hugs haven't changed" and give her a weak smile.

I turned and looked at Jodie who was now holding my bag, she told me to lock the car and once it was done Donna practically dragged me into the house with Jodie following behind. I took my shoes off in the hall and then made my way further into the house but before I could go any further I was halted by my phone ringing. Looking at the screen I answered my sisters' call and as soon as I did she was shouting down the phone "wow your alive, it's been 6 hours, have you got there yet?" "Hey, yes sorry I zoned out driving then was at the hospital with Peter and I've just got to Jodie's a few minutes ago" "are you not staying at your house?" I explain that I wouldn't be because of Nicola and she agreed it would probably be best but warned me "don't do anything stupid while you're there and in a vulnerable place" I'm not going to lie I was a bit taken aback by this but just agreed and said bye before ending the call. I look at my phone thinking about what Dana has just said and I am soon taken from those thoughts by a hand on my arm which made me jump and drop my phone "not again" hoping it's not broken I pick it up from the floor and it looks ok, I notice a lot of notifications but ignore them for now, after putting it in my pocket I look at Jodie who gives me a worried look.

"I'm OK, my head was somewhere else and you startled me is all" "you'd let me know otherwise wouldn't you? Actually I know you wouldn't but please Y/N talk to me, I don't want you to suffer in silence, scream at me, anything just don't bury yourself again. You have a lot of people in your corner both blood and not, and I'm going to stop being all mushy. So when's the last time you ate, how about we order your favourite takeaway because none of us have eaten yet either".

"That would be nice, can we get blue star, is it still the same, I've missed proper salt and pepper chips and chicken, it's all shit down south" she just laughs at me.

Donna comes into the room and asks why were still in the hall, we don't answer but just follow her through the house and settled in the kitchen. It had been redone since the last time I was here, it was nice but as I looked around I saw something missing. I looked at Jodie and then to Donna, "where's my AGA?" they both looked at me and as if on cue, James walked in from the back door and took in the atmosphere and asked what was wrong. Donna told him I asked where the AGA was and his face paled too. "Erm, well, the thing is, I kind of broke it when I started the remodel". That AGA meant a lot to me, Donna taught me how to cook many a time on it and it was like my therapist, I would feel better about everything after cooking here. "It's ok, nothing lasts forever" I said with a heavy heart. Jodie tells them that were going to order food and I give her my order again before heading outside.

I sat on the back step and went in my pocket to get my cigarettes; I search my pockets for my lighter and pull out the envelope with my name on from my auntie. I put it in my lap and find my lighter and lit my cigarette. I picked up the envelope and stared at the writing. Am I going to be able to open this? Do I have the strength to? Was she disappointed in me? Everything was circling in my head until I was broken out of my thoughts when Jodie ran her hand across my shoulders before sitting next to me.

"I thought you quit, that's not good for you, you know." She sees the envelope in my hand and questions what it is. After telling her that it was from Hazel she just looked at me. "are you going to open it?" I shook my head. "Do you want me to open it for you?" I nodded unable to say anything as I took the last bit of my cigarette and threw it into the bucket next to the door. I gave her the letter and she opened it.  

So here is chapter 3 :) any ideas/ suggestions are welcome, I try and write in advance so i always have at a chapter in reserve