Abusive (Justin Bieber)

Chapter 19

I woke up feeling disgusting. I prayed to Jesus to forgive my sins and help me.

I just wanted to sit in a rain puddle and cry. Jake was still asleep and I locked myself in the bathroom. I plugged in ear phones and started listening to Nirvana. It made me even more depressed because Kurt Cobain was so hot but he died because of suicidal thoughts and drug abuse. I looked at myself in the mirror and I looked like trash, like a person on the streets, that had no job, no family, no love, just absolute trash.

I feel like I cheated on Justin, by I didn't. Justin and I are done. I looked at his Instagram and saw how he posted a picture of him and my sister kissing and my heart broke I scream cried into a towel so Jake wouldn't hear. I hate my life. I wish all this pain was gone. I wish I could disappear.

I then started singing a song that I just made up. thank good the guitar was in the bathroom and that the bathroom was sound proof so no one could hear anything if they weren't in the bathroom.

I started strumming and singing.

"Fooled me again. fooled me again. with those honest, honest, honest lies. again fooled me again with your dirty mind filled with honest lies..." I sang. I just kept singing and it was really good. I was still depressed though.

Thank god the closet is inside the bathroom. I changed into my black gladiator sandals with a black short flow-like dress and a black bra-lette that you could kind of see but was cute. I then put my hair up in a cute bun and added a hobo styled black Botkier bag. I then added some sunglasses. of course I did my makeup.

Jake was up and was on Instagram.

"Hey Beauty queen" he said. I really was just upset at the world and I didn't want to talk to any one.

"Hey I'm gonna go out for a little while." I said.

"No your not you didn't ask for permission" he said getting mad.

"I don't have to ask for permission in my own person." I said to him like he was stupid.

"Do you want to say that one more time" he said really scary like.

"I'm sorry I've just had a rough day and I would like to get out of the house." I said.

"Okay go ahead." he said.

I hate France I want to go back home.

"Umm Jake can I tell you something." I said.

"What" he said.

"I think I'm need to be alone for a while" I said.

"Okay you can stay in the guest house." he said like it was obvious.

"No Jake I think I don't want a boyfriend right now." I said.

"That doesn't matter. Your my property. Understand" he says while pointing a finger at me.

"Yeah" I said.

I grabbed his car keys to one of his yellow Lamborghini's and drive really fast to my moms house. I started crying again because I saw Justin and my sister cuddling on the couch through the window.

I drive up furiously and loudly into the parking area so they could hear and Justin would see my car. I pushed up my cleavage as I walked in.

"Where's my mom?" I said with pure anger to my sister as she snuggled into Justin's chest more and smirked.

"She's my mom to you know." she said.

"Really? Because it's so hard seeing someone that has a tar-black sole and is cruel to me coming out of a beautiful soul and a glowing personality like moms." I said to her.