The Broken Mind Reader

Spinning Thoughts

I asked Emmet to take me home soon after. I couldn't be around Edward and Alice took Jasper to feed so I couldn't ask her.

When I got home I went up to my room and sat on my bed trying to think of a story to tell Charlie. I could tell him I've gone to study abroad in Italy...but then he'd expect me to stay in contact. Maybe not that. Or I could do that and then in a couple months say I'd died rather suddenly. Yes that could work. I could keep tabs on him through the Cullens. Mom too.

My heart breaks at the thought of never seeing my parents again. I suppose it would have to have been that way when the Cullens turned me too.

My mind wandered to Aro. Did he truely love me as the guard said he did? Did he care for me? Was I going all the way to Italy for him to kill me? What if he just turns me and ignores me? What if I get there and he decides he no longer wants me? This is the damage Edward had done. I was doubting my worth before giving this love a chance.

Edward had lied about being my mate and he left me without a care of what it would do to me.

I shook my head to clear the rabbit hole of thoughts. I went downstairs to see what Charlie was up to. He was watching a basketball game.

I sat on the couch next to him and he looked up at me. He seemed shocked but said nothing, seeming to enjoy the time with me.

"Hey dad, I got this opportunity to study abroad in Italy. All expenses paid. But I leave at the end of the week." I figured I'd give him as much time as possible to adjust.

"This is rather sudden, Bella. What made you want to do this?" He looked away from the TV at the end of the sentence.

"I don't know. It's a chance to learn more things and see Italy. I'd be spending much needed time away from Edward," he seemed pleased with my answers and nodded, turning his attention back to the game.

I was glad he was happy with the plan. I leaned on his shoulder and watched the game with him. If I was to leave and never see him again I'd like to spend as much time with him as I can.