Story Time With Ali

for my bsf (again)

I rly wish u wouldn't do this shit yk

Like bcz it's not funny, ik I do it but it's rly not
Suicide jokes no matter if they're a joke or not anymore I'm worried abt u

U keep lying and it sucks but what matters even more is that ur ok

Ik u wanna talk abt it but u don't and I'm rly fucking worried bcz ur not ok

I'm sorry and ily platonically but like bro I see u wanna talk abt it

Y don't u?

Wish u would

And I'm really fucking sorry

Ali rly just wants to help u and u keep pushing me out

I don't know what to do anymore and I'm stuck, I'm struggling

I can't just do all of this anymore and I can't save everyone which rly fucking sucks

Ur leaving and ur my reason to stay

What's the point anymore? Ash doesn't talk to me and I'm losing u

Nthn makes sense and the only thing that's stayed and is gonna stay is this music everyone and everything else leaves, they always will

Ali will be stuck here alone and they rly don't wanna deal with that shit anymore

I think it's too much to stay

Honestly I'm so fucking done with life man
I wanna make it stop and I'm not ok ik u see it we both see it
I'm sorry for bothering u
Ali isn't ok and they can't pretend anymore

I feel like nobody respects who I am as a person and all I do is bother u
I'm annoying u and it's my fault bcz I rly need to stop talking more often

God I should have never typed this shit out but ik u never gonna see it anyways
I rly don't wanna lose u and u leaving fucking sucks

I cant check in on u in person and we both know ur probably gonna cut more and I would literally never fucking know
I wouldn't see and so I couldn't know

Idk what to do anymore and I feel so lost bcz I can't help anymore
U don't wanna talk anymore

This fucking sucks man and idek what to say or what to do
I wish all of this bullshit could just stop

No more stress or overthinking, just no more

Does Ali have to keep doing this?
Keep trying so hard only to fail and gio and everyone just keeps getting hurt

I'm losing u and everything is going to shit
I don't know what to do anymore and I'm so happy ur never gonna see this

Bcz Ali rly wishes this would just stop
We could be normal and everything would be fine and everyone would be ok for once

I just need it all to stop and for yall to be ok at this point

Not just for u, but for me
I can't take this anymore and I feel so fucking bad for saying this

I want u to talk to me, and feel safe saying what u wanna say
No more lies or any of it
Just us, talking abt what u need to talk abt

This is so fucking stupid I shouldn't even be saying this

I feel so guilty for saying all of this crap, and then I see ur discord messages pop up and Ali doesn't know what to say anymore

I'm just laying down and wanting to talk abt the shit but I don't know what to say or how to say it

I rly feel like giving up but I made u the promise so I won't

It feels like the end of everything, and we just went on break
Yesterday was ur last day of school and Ali is so lost

No more u at lunchtime, and u just disappear
No more hugs, or anything

I should stop crying rn but I can't bcz ur leaving me and it fucking sucks for both of us but idk y I'm taking it so hard

Ur my bsf and I rly hate losing u but everyone just keeps fucking leaving and Ali is stuck here

I wanna quit but I can't leave them here

It's not fair that this happens to u
Good ppl r getting fucked over in life and there's nothing I can do to stop the shit

God I wanna die sfm rn