I want to be mad
I want to be angry
But all I have is this overwhelming sadness
I want to you to find peace but how can you find peace while my heart still grieves for you
It breaks my heart that in the moment
You needed saving I wasn't there
That your story will forever remain an unfinished page in an unfinished book
That I have all this unanswered questions
I saw the signs you gave me
The random remarks
The lost smile
The teary eyes
But I wanted you to stay
I needed you to stay
Cause you were my sanity.
My safe place,my refuge
Maybe I was so caught up in myself
That I didn't see you fading.
And after all the time and the pain
I'll have to settle for the memories
Maybe I didn't find you in this world
So I'll have to settle for the ghost of you.
~b.h.s~
