Nobody talks about how hard it is to yearn for love.
Especially when you have never experienced that soul tying and bombarding kind of love
It's like knowing that something is missing, but you do not know what it is.
I do not know what love is or what loving somebody
Who is not family or friend feels like.
I hear people say it's like finding someone
Who understands you but also confuses you
Someone who you wish to share all your crazy thoughts and weird feelings all the time
Someone who is different, but for some reason
Feels like they are part of you.
I heard people say the best kind of love
Is the unexpected kind.
But how will I know it's love when I never felt any emotion like that.
When my day to day routine consists of only me and me alone.
When the only strong emotion I know is either pain or fear.
People say finding love is like finding happiness that is unexplainable.
But i thought true happiness is when you no longer feel the need to unalive , when you stop the fake smiles and whenever you're in a crowd of people you can genuinely laugh.
Someone said that the happiness that comes with love is like finding a part of your soul that was lost.
That happiness is so pure that one is willing to withstand the bad days or the stormy nights
For that thrill of knowing that someone is always going to catch you when you fall.
You see, I don't know about withstanding the stormy nights and the bad days, but I think that one should not give anyone such power
Power so great that my mood or my farings revolve around you.
I don't know, maybe I am just talking because the only time I am genuinely happy is when I am laying in my bed making wild delusions so that I can persuade slumber to welcome me to his kingdom .
~ b.h.s ~
