PIPE DREAMS #1 THE TRIP

Day 5. (part 2)

It took us less time to return back. We didn't make any stops and we didn't talk as much as we did before changing our direction to the one of my home but there was always between us a comfortable silence, we didn't need to say more. We were just passing again from all the places that i showed him before and i was thinking of each one of the things that we discussed and the things that i told him and i imagined that he did the same, he definitely was thinking of something. I was hoping that he liked our hiking because tomorrow we would have to walk another road from the opposite side of the village, to see what exists in that way. 

We reached my house. We climbed the stairs. By the time, we opened the door of my home, we were already feeling a little bit tired and we wanted to rest for a while before we do anything else, also we wanted to make a bath because we were covered in sweat. I turned on both of the air conditioners. He sat for some minutes on the bed's foot with me till the house gets warmer and i opened the television. We started watching a greek lifestyle tv show. I leaned my head to the side, on his right shoulder. Later, he removed his clothes and he went first to the bathroom. I checked his clothes that he leaved them on a chair nearby to see if they were wet because mine felt a tiny bit wet in the back and if they were wet i would hang them from the metal wire ropes that we have on the balcony for the laundry. They were wet so after i would finish with my bath, i would hang them with mine. 

Next, he came out of the bathroom and i gave him a towel to dry himself and i took one out that was mine and i use it everytime that i'm here. He asked me what to wear and if we would go to eat exactly after my bath or after a couple of hours and i told him that we both got tired, so it's better to rest and he wore his pajamas and laid down on the bed. I made a bath too, i wore my pajamas and i hanged our clothes outside. I dried my hair with a hair dryer and he raised from the bed and i also dried his hair. He then returned to the bed and lifted the blanket like it was his wing and was putting me under his protection and i got in. 

We slept almost for three hours. I felt his hand on my head, caressing my hair, that woke me up. I felt his lips kissing my forehead in the area between my eyebrows. I opened my eyes and i saw him starring at me. "Finally you woke up", he said to me. I felt a little bit weirded out, something in his behaviour seemed unexpected, in the way he looked at me. I wish i could read his mind to know what he is thinking, what he wants. He brought his body closer to mine and sealed my lips with his. He was kissing me passionately and with lots of intensity till he climbed on me, continuing though to kiss me. I put my hands underneath the top of his pajamas, holding tightly his back and then his waist, before my hands travelled to the inside area of his underwear and touching the upper part of his butt when he jumb off me and moved to the right side of the bed. He surprised me with what he did but before i think it more, he pulled me into his arms in a strong embrace, living me dumbfounded. He kissed the left side of my head, over my hair, holding me even more tightly. I wanted to ask him if everything is alright but i couldn't utter a word. I dreamed a lot of all these things, i desired them to be sincere. I clutched onto him. We stayed like this for more than ten minutes and we didn't want to get separated and with great difficulty we moved apart. We would have to go out eventually and the time was passing. I went to the bathroom.

When i returned, I sat on edge of the bed in front of him. "You should get up too, to go and eat. It's getting late for lunch and i'm feeling hungry", i told him because his face was saying that he wanted to stay in bed. He dragged me back on the bed and started to tickle me. "We have to go", i went on. He changed his facial expression to the one of a grumpy cat and started tickling me again and i was trying to push him. When i saw that he didn't stop, my reaction was to push him even harder. I needed him to stop his games. "I'm not torturing you", he said. "Yes, you are", i replied but during the time that i was anwering him, i wasn't thinking only about now that he was tickling me. I was speaking about all the things that he has done to me so far and he understood it in my way. He distanced his body from mine. He blew the air out of his mouth while making a sound and looking at the ceiling. I lifted my body and sat again on the edge of the bed and turned my back to him but suddenly i felt that i have to look at him and he had his eyes closed, probably he was trying to calm himself. Why i had to destroy everything?! We were so good before. What's gotten into me? I knew the answer to that, yet i also knew that i wasn't okay with the situationship between us. I had feelings for him and i desired more from him and the fact that i was recognizing that he isn't going to give me that, no matter what i do for him, no matter what i allow in order to have him in life, in order to spend time with him, was driving me insane. He can't possibly, not seeing that or not understanding that. He is choosing deliberately to ignore my feelings and to not take them into consideration and that pisses me off. Why do i feel so bad for what i did just now?

I stood up and i was walking around in circles in the kitchen, blaming my self for what i did and after not very long time, he left the bed and went to the bathroom. I was wondering if he saw what i was doing. What will we do now? How will we go out in that mood? Should i apologize to him? He did all those things to me. It would be really pathetic of me to apologize. It's like i'm telling him that i'm accepting all the things you have done so far, you can now do some more. I hate feeling like a victim but he is bringing me in this position. I heard him coming out of the bathroom and i tried to act as cool as possible. I guess he was trying to do the same. He stood in front of the kitchen's door and looked at me. "Are we gonna go out to eat?", he said while he was making an effort to find the mood that we had before. "Yes. Let's get dressed", i aswered him and moved my hand to emphasize my words. 

We removed our pajamas and wore our clothes. I checked my self in the mirror and i saw my hair that were like crazy. He approached the right side of me and sat behind me. "What is wrong?", he asked me. "My hair are like a mad person's. Look how you made them", i said to him and i turned so he can see me. However, instead of fixing my hair or saying something that would improve the way that i was feeling, he started messing them up even more. "That's even better. Now, i will be the only one looking at you". I wide opened my mouth. He was starring at me. I hit him a few times but not very hard. He grabbed me from the higher part of my arms and kissed me. When he finished kissing me. He pulled me further from his body at a distance from which he could study me. He acted like he was fixing my hair but not really, because this didn't last for more than two seconds. He winked at me and moved his body to the direction of the clothes stand and he searched the pockets of his jacket. I couldn't help it and a smile was formed on my lips. I was gazing at his back and i was asking my self what i'm going to do with him. He took his jacket and questioned me if i'm ready. I combed my hair while i had his eyes pinned on me. "Now i'm ready", i replied. He opened my home's door and i grasped my jacket.