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Chapter 13 / realisation

(Sebastian's POV)

'Did I hear that correct?' I thought feeling shook. I felt Darren lay down behind me. I didn't know how to react, obviously I knew he wasn't fully over me, but it still shocked me. I turned around seeing Darren falling asleep. 'He isn't bad...' I thought looking at him up and down. 'What the fuck am I saying bruh.' I thought turning back around forcing myself to sleep.

The next morning

I woke up tired as fuck. I looked at my phone and it was 5 am. "Jesus Christ, why so early." I said rubbing my eyes. Yes I could of slept more but I didn't want to. I walked to see if anyone was awake. I check regie and Justin's room. I peeked in seeing Regie and Kane in the bed. "Kane?" I whispered confused. "Wait that means." I walked up to Ryan and Darren's room, looking in through the door. "What the fuck." I whispered in disbelief. In front of me was Ryan and Justin, well not in front of me but in my view. But they weren't just there......'they're kissing?!' I thought holding my mouth. They stopped and looked at each other smiling. "Oh, this is so cute." I said opening the door. "Seb?!" Justin and Ryan both yelled. "Hey shoo. It's fine I won't say anything." I said winking at them. "Thanks I guess." Justin replied hugging Ryan. "Heh, you lovebirds continue then." I shut the door and walked down stairs. 'What should I do about Darren?' I sat on the couch wondering. As I got lost in my thoughts I saw Darren walk downstairs. He looked really exhausted. "Hey Darren." I said patting the couch signalling him to sit next me. He sat down rubbing his eyes. "Did you sleep ok?" I asked looking at his red eyes, that had dark circles underneath them. "Eventually." He replied looking at me. "Why didn't you sleep?" I asked feeling concerned. He didn't reply to me, but laid on my lap, moving around to get comfortable. "Woah, what are you doing?" I asked shocked. "Mm, let me sleep for a bit." Darren said mumbling. I sighed but let him rest.

Few minutes later

(3rd persons POV)

Regie walked down stairs seeing Darren's and seb. He walked up to them and sat next to Darren who was sound asleep. "Oh look at you two." Regie said smirking. "Don't say anything." Seb said flustered. Regie saw Oliver and went to him. "Hey Olly." Regie said putting his arm around ollys shoulders. "Hey Regie." Olly said smiling brightly, as they walked into the kitchen. Seb looked at Darren and his heart started racing. 'Why do I feel like this?' He thought holding his chest. His intrusive thoughts won and he reached his hand out and played with Darren's hair, he caressed his hair down to his cheek. Sebs face was bright red but he felt comfortable. 'What am I doing.' He thought snapping out of it and covering his face. "Carry on." Darren mumbled in a tired tone. Sebs face went shocked and he froze. "More.." Darren groaned patting his head. Seb reached out again and continued. Darren smiled and seb was freaking out internally.

After filming 6:32pm

(Darren's POV)

'I couldn't stop staring at seb, he looked so angelic and it made me go insane. When he played with my hair I felt happier than I have ever before. I know I sound crazy but he's just perfect to me.' I thought jumping on my bed. "Someone's happy?" Ryan said smirking. "Don't talk. You and Justin are fruity enough." I said hitting my face with a pillow. I saw Ryan's face go red and was clearly embarrassed. "Whatever." He said going on his phone. I sighed and got up. I wanted to change so I went to my cupboard. I looked through it not seeing a clean shirt. "Ryan can I borrow a shirt?" I asked desperately. "Hell no. Get one from your boyfriend." Ryan said staring at me. "Shut up bruh." I said feeling my cheeks go hot. He laughed at me while I went to Kane and sebs room. I walked in seeing seb taking his hoodie off and Kane wasn't in the room. "Where's Kane?" I asked closing the door behind me. "Oh, he's down stairs." Seb said sitting next to me on the bed. "Oh yeah can I borrow a shirt pleasee." I begged. Seb rolled his eyes and chuckled. He went through his cupboard and pulled out the hoodie he just took off. "This is the only, almost clean washing I have right now." He said handing me the hoodie. "Wow thanks." I took the hoodie and change into it. 'It smells just like him.' I smiled wildly hiding my face into the hoodie. "You good?" Seb asked looking at me. "Yeah." I replied embarrassed. Seb chuckled and looked at the floor. I had an idea and started tickling him. "Hey, what the fuck?!" He yelled laughing. I started laughing and lost my guard. Seb started tackling me then tickled me mercilessly. "Stop!" I laughed so hard tears were falling from my eyes. We both caught our breathes. Seb was on top of me panting. I stared at his glistening eyes. I hesitated but went for a kiss.

(Sebastian's POV)

Darren kissed me out of no where and that left me in disbelief, but it didn't feel awkward. I kissed him back. Going in for a passionate kiss, I grabbed his waist lifting him up. I let go of the kiss and stared at him in silence. "Is this really happening..." I whispered looking around. I looked back at Darren who's face was clearly uncomfortable but worried. I kissed him again, making him shocked but he kissed back. I put my hand on his cheek and the other left on his waist. I opened my eyes still in the kiss seeing Darren's red face. 'He looks so beautiful.' I thought surprised. I let go of the kiss to get a better look at his blushing face. Then it hit me. 'What am I doing?' I thought confused. 'Do I like him or not?' I got frustrated. "Darren. Do you like me, like for real like me?" I asked straight forward. He looked at me and frowned. "Well I mean..."