Catastrophic Clouds

The Void

Under the crushing wave of defeat
There's black water that surrounds me
It's hard to move
I'm just surrounded by a void of blackness
Unable to move
All I can do is spin and float around
What the hell is wrong with me?
Why are these memories flooding back into my mind?
I don't want to remember
The void is changing
Memories of laughter
Memories of what used to be
I can't take it
I wish it'd leave me alone
The memories disappear
But all that is left is the darkness
Voices in my head whispering doubt
My eyes watering from the emotions that played inside
The pain that I felt seeing the memories
I don't want to remember
I hate the memories
I'm unable to move when I see them
The black water surrounds me when they appear
Forcing me to watch
Her eyes
That smile
Those moments when we touched
Her voice
Then that bright light
And her last breath
Leaving me completely alone
Floating in a void of nothing
Stuck with the memories, I wish not to remember
I'm dying
I don't want to remember
I wish to be left alone