Catastrophic Clouds

Wounds

My wounds won’t seem to heal
The tears won’t ever stop
As my fears grow stronger
Of the day I lose you
Our hands slowly drift apart
As I scream your name and say not to leave
But you looked away and folded your arms
Time cannot take away my pain
Only does it bury it deeper inside me
To have it appear another time
Promising to protect me
It’s all a lie.
I’ve been all alone in this, haven’t I?
You were never real
Only inside my head as I imagined it all
I cry
And no one comes
So maybe I am right
You’re not real
I scream
And they laugh
They won’t believe me
I swear you were real and there for me
But now you’re gone, and no one can see you
If only you felt what I felt on the inside
It paralyzes my mind
I’m not able to take it
So I write
Even though my wounds will never heal
The pain feels far too real to be a lie
Why does it hurt this badly?
When time promises, it’ll go away
But it’s not true
It only gets worse
My wounds burn
My sanity in me disappears
Time was supposed to be my friend
But like all friends
They learn your weaknesses
And they use them against you
To lie to your face
I feel fragile
To the point, I cannot save others
But only myself
I’ve grown so helpless
And pushed you all away
I didn’t want to hurt you
But I did, didn’t I?
I’m so sorry
I let my wounds burn and bleed
So I never would forget about the world
And its cruelness
And how it screwed with me and my emotions