Catastrophic Clouds

Music Notes

I lay in bed looking up at the ceiling
Depressing music playing
Instead of counting sheep, I'm counting musical notes
Each note is a broken piece of myself
Every note holding onto a memory I wish I could forget
All the pain swells up in my chest, and I have no idea how to let go
So I let it consume me till I go numb, and I fall asleep to try to forget
Waking up somewhere else
I see that I'm at the bottom
Looking around, I see shadows
One walks up to me, and a memory flashes
Tears fall from my face as the shadow fades
I forget what I saw, but the raw emotion lingers
The pain I felt filled my heart
Why can't I remember why it hurts?
I look around and find myself surrounded
Memories fade in and out as the shadows disappear
More tears and pain torment me, leaving me in agony
Falling to my knees, unable to remember why it hurts
Maybe it's because I wished I could forget too many times
I never did heal enough, so the pain stuck around
Now my heart is ready to explode with what I'm feeling
So when will this nightmare end?
I'm sick of fighting myself
Covered in bruises and scars
My heart feels like it's bleeding
Every shadow approaches me to fade away, giving me more pain
I'm starting to lose this fight
I feel as if I'm losing myself the more I forget
I feel deeply rooted in pain and sadness
I wonder how much time I have left before I remain just a vessel for negative emotions
I'm all alone, unable to move when the last shadow fades
Leaving me unable to remember why I hurt