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IMPORTANT UPDATE

So, most of you don't follow me and I did post this on my wall just now, but I'll put it here as well so everyone who enjoys this story can stay updated.

I also wanna add that there is a new chapter ready to be updated and posted, it just needs a little work.

Anyway, here's the message:

The year is coming to an end and I would like to apologize for not updating my story ;-; however, new year same me same bullshit but new motivation. This year has been severe on me. I had a gender identity crisis and an accident which resulted in my hand having physical damage that affected my work. I've also just been really stressed out in general with work and having an extremely unfair (and transphobic and racist as well) manager who made my work life miserable. In August I attempted suicide and was kept in ICU for 3 days and a week in a psych ward after that. My psychiatrist declared me unfit to be a functioning member of society and I was kept from work for 6 weeks. In that time I worked a bit on myself, got some new tattoos and piercings, worked on my streaming and YouTube and after the break I moved workplaces. Everything has been going better since and though I still work 10 hour shifts, I try to make time for the things I enjoy. 2023 will be entirely different. I'll be more active in writing and YouTube as well as getting back into art!

Thanks to everyone who has stuck around and supported me!

I would still like to apologize for being gone so long, but my mind was not with me. Furthermore, I'll be posting this series on Ao3 and then make Ao3 my main platform. I have another temporarily discontinued Encanto fic on there which I will not be posting to Wattpad. If you guys like uncensored (by that I mean stories more or less the same as this and not 100% family friendly) stories, my Ao3 will be there for ones I deem inappropriate for Wattpad. (This could be due to many elements of the stories such as violence, language, smut, horror and so on)

Onto the matter of Apex itself, I have now fully withdrawn myself from the community. Though there are a lot of amazing people in it and I've made a lot of friends through it, it's mostly toxic, both from the player base and the dev team. It would get to a point where I would rage so much at the game itself, the bugs and "patches" and changes made to it and toxic players just ruining the experience in general. My psychiatrist actually advised me not to play Apex anymore as I became rather violent because of it.

Here's a rant about another reason I won't return to the community. You don't have to read this if you don't want to:

On a more controversial topic, I am not happy with the way the lore and characters are going and my reasoning is that the game is exploiting vulnerable communities for money and more players and interaction. Respawn saw their stats were dropping with Overwatch 2 launching, the new Call of Duty game coming out and Fortnite making a lot of positive changes to their game and attracting more players as well as having a bunch of huge collabs which would bring communities together and grow them. Naturally, no mega corperation actually cares about their consumers and only wants money, but the irony is that Apex tries to promote a diverse board of characters and in the end exploit people of minorities. If it wasn't obvious, that would be a different story, but it's painfully obvious they only added Catalyst because they felt they needed to. I am in full support of them adding a trans character into a game and also having trans people work with them while making her, but on closer inspection, her entire personality is that she's a neo-pagan trans woman. And I've not seen many good things said about her on social media. People are being extremely transphobic and are calling Respawn out for releasing her. This only hurts the trans community as now the players make it seem as though trans people are not welcome in or on the game. This is a sensitive topic to me as well as I have come out as trans masc a few months ago and – disregarding the stress my work added – the rejection I got from not only family (as that was predictable) but also friends has cost me 3 days in a hospital bed and given me quite a lot of permanent health concerns. I won't speak on behalf of the entire trans community, but I can confidently say this doesn’t feel like representation.

Another thing is that Apex is so concerned about the lore of their game that they completely neglect the gameplay. But now with Catalyst having barely any lore other than being trans and a witch, they seem to stop caring about that as well. (It has been a minute since I've checked in on her wiki and the Apex lore subreddit and Apex's twitter, so maybe, hopefully, it has changed and she's more than just that, so this statement might be outdated)

They could have done better, in my opinion. Releasing a trans character for representation and helping trans people with being more accepted in the workplace is an amazing thing, but like I said, they push the fact that Catalyst is trans down your throat. The timing of her release is also rather suspicious given their competitors have been having a lot of success during that time.

That's just personally how I feel about it. And I won't tell people they're wrong for being excited about her being a character, because despite it all, she seems like she could be pretty cool. I just felt it necessary to voice my concerns and reasons for why I won't be part of the community anymore.

I am so grateful for everyone who has supported this series and for the friends I made through Apex both on the game and here on Wattpad. But unfortunately I have to say goodbye to it. Maybe one day the larger toxic part of the community and the corporate motives will chill and I'll come back.