Impurities (Seth Clearwater)

Prologue

Jae POV-

Me, Levi, and Maki run through the hospitals halls in a panic, in search for specific room. Once we found the room with the plaque's engraved name "Maria Black" etched on it we all barged in to see our dad sitting next to our mothers bed grasping her hand with what little strength he and her had left. 

There was no sounds escaping either of their mouths the only thing that could be heard was the faint beeps of the heart monitor that detected the rather slow beats of our moms heart. She was was in her final stages of Breast Cancer. I'm 16 now, and we have had to live with the idea of one day losing mom for 2 years now. 

"Kids come here" mom said weakly as she tries her hardest to force a smile, dad turns and looks at us showing us a sad smile, this was the second time we had ever seen him cry the first being the day my mom was diagnosed. We surrounded mom and all shared our few moments we had with her. She took her time talking to each of us individually starting with my big sister, Maki. 

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It was finally my turn to listen to my mom, "Jae listen to me carefully ok" I nodded slowly "I want you to know that whatever mistakes you have made, whatever you said that has hurt us, anything you did that you regret doing I forgive you and it was always those little thing you have that made me love the person you grew up to be" I chuckle wiping the tears that was falling drastically. 

"I'm sorry I could never be the perfect daughter you wanted me to be mom" 

"You are already everything I asked for - I have never met someone as bold, witty, and as sarcastic as you...whatever people have said about you, judging you for, none of it matters and it never will. I will always love you from the heavens and back and remember I have always been proud of what you've become" She gently touched my face with what little strength she had left. 

I was always closer to my dad growing up, compared to my siblings who have always favored my mom. It was hard for me to be close with my mom considering she was always the one questioning my every move, it was not a strained relationship but it was definitely not one where there was no guarantee of no fighting between us. So hearing her say something like crushed me, why after all these years she finally says that. 

"I love you, mom." was all I could choke out trying to suppress all my tears threatening to fall out.  

We shed tears and told family jokes, memories, and promises but all that was cut off once we heard the sound of the heart monitor take its final beep, it was the sound of silence. 

Maria Black Time of Death 7:47 pm October 14, 2005. 

Place: Hiroo Hospital, Shibuya, Japan.