billy loomis x stu macher one-shots || Book Two

if you wanna go then go but i am coming with you

Warning - angst ,self-harm suicidal thoughts, suicide attempt,angst with a happy ending
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"You are pathetic "

"You're weak"

"You're annoying "

"You talk to much"

"You're not even funny"

"Loser"

"Idiot "

"He doesn't even love you"

Stu closed his eye's taking a deep breath trying to ignore the voices in his head ,one of his hand's was pulling at his hair while his other hand was Scratching at the scars that were on his wrist

"Billy only Pity's you,doesn't really love"

A whimper left stu as a tear slid down his eye,down his chin

"You really are pathetic if you think anybody actually loves you ,they all hate you ,you're so annoying ,it's a surpise how they all put up with you"

A small sob escaped stu as he gripped his hair tighter before he lifted up his other hand that was scratching at the scars,and he smacked his head
"Shut up" he mumble

"You should do everyone a favor and just kill yourself, nobody wants you around anways"

Stu slowly opened his eye's,tears were streaming down his face ,he sniffled and he stood up before going to the bathroom

He grabbed the razor that he had hidden in the bathroom and he just stared at it before he looked down at his arm that was red due to him scratching at it earlier

"Do it,come on you fucking worthless piece of shit!fucking do it!"

Stu put the razor to wrist before he slowly slid it across the old scars  ,he stared as the blood started to flow out and drip into the sink ,it splattered all over the place but stu didn't care ,he wasn't the one that was gonna clean it anyways

Stu did again before he switched to his other wrist and did the same cuts as the other wrist

After stu was finished cutting ,he dropped the razor in the blood covered sink before he sat back leaning his back against the cold wall with his arm's stretched out infront of him

He stared at the blood flowing out staining the white tile floor red ,

"What would billy think?when he finds out that you killed yourself?" It was a different voice,this one sounded much softer

"He'll be happy" stu mumble out,his eye's feeling heavy

"No,he wouldn't,he'll be devastated,he loves you so much,why can't you see that?" Stu let out a weak sob

"I'm sorry" he whimpered out

"Don't be sorry"

"It's...to late now...god,what was I thinking" stu mumble out

"It's not too late" stu shook his head before he slowly and shakily stood up ,his vision was blurred and his body swayed,his legs felt very weak

He only managed to take one step before he collapse on the floor

"Stu?darling?are you here?" Stu must be hallucinating Billy's voice,because he can hear billy

"Stu?baby?" He heard billy call out again and stu this time swore he wasn't hallucinating,he could really hear Billy's voice,billy was here and stu was bleeding out dying in his bathroom

Stu didn't want billy seeing him like this  ,he didn't want him seeing him die

"Call out for him...please" stu whimpered before he weakly called out for billy

"Billy..."stu didn't how long he called out for billy or even how loud he was but soon he heard the bathroom door open

"Shit!fuck!" He heard billy curse before he saw billy ,he looked panicked and worried ,his hand's hovered over stu not knowing what to do

"Oh stu baby,why would you do this" he heard billy say "billy..."he softly called out his name and billy looked at him cupping his face in his hand's

"You're gonna be okay,just hold on ,just hold on okay baby ,shit I've got to call an ambulance,just hold on okay,I'll be right back ,just give me a second" billy said before he disappeared from stu's veiw

Stu felt his eye's slowly closing before he felt himself being shaken and he lifted up his eye's and looked at billy who looked so scared and stu never wanted to see that look on Billy's face again ,it made him feel so bad about it ,made him for guilty because billy was scared because of him

Billy held him ,his back was pressed against Billy's chest and his head rested on Billy's head as billy held him tightly applying pressure to his wounds

"Stop..." stu whispered out "what?" Billy looked at stu with wide eye's "want..you..to stop" stu told him weakly trying to remove his hand's from billy but billy kept a tight grip

"You...want me to stop?" Billy sounded so heartbroken and stu looked at him and he felt so guilty seeing billy crying ,billy loomis never cries

"Okay" stu looked at him in shock "if you want to go then go but I'm coming with you" billy said and stu shook his head "no.."

"If you die then I die too..I can't live without you stu, you're everything to me without you...my life means nothing,so if you want to die then I'm dying with you " billy told him and stu let out another set of fresh tears streaming down his face

"Don't...want...to leave...you" stu managed to say before he closed his eye's "stu,baby keep you're eye's open!"he heard billy shout before stu welcomed the darkness
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Stu opened his eye's,wincing and blinking at the bright lights before his eye's got used to the light again ,he heard beeping and he looked around the room noticing that he was in a hospital room

Stu eye's landed on the person sleeping in the chair that was next to the bed ,it was billy

He was sleeping with his head titled back and legs stretched out,stu smiled,billy was so adorable

Stu frown thinking that he almost killed himself ,he thought about Billy's panicked and scared look ,he thought about what billy said

"If you want to go then go but I'm coming with you"

Stu felt pressure built behind his eye's before he blinked and tears fell from his eye's,the beeping got a bit louder and that woke up billy ,who quickly looked towards stu with relief in eye's but he looked worried and he stood up and quickly went over to stu and cupped his face in his hand's

"Darling..what's wrong?" Billy softly asked "I'm so sorry..I'm sorry" stu said repeating it over and over again

"Hey,shh, it's okay baby,you don't have to apologize" billy told him "i..I tried to kill myself billy..I tried to leave you...aren't you mad?" Stu asked and billy shook his head

"I'm not mad,I'm not mad,I am a little upset but not at you ,I'm upset at myself for not seeing the signs earlier " billy said using one hand to wipe stu's tears away while he used his other hand to run through stu's hair

Stu lifted up his hand and pushed Billy's hair out of his face ,he looked so tired
"Can you lay down with me?just hold me?" Stu asked and billy nodded and stu scooted over and billy got into the bed and pulled stu closer to him holding him in his embrace

Stu faced billy and he lifted up his hand and caressed Billy's face and billy leaned into his touch

"I promised I won't try and leave you again " stu whispered "you can't make that promise stu" billy said "but darling if you want to go ,you'll tell me so I can go with you " billy added

"If you die then I die too"

"Okay..I love you billy" stu said and billy leaned forward and kissed stu before pulling back giving stu a small smile
"I love you too darling "
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1323 word's!
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