THE HIVE

Chapter 32

Some feelings are hard to describe. And this...has to be one of them. It's not the feeling of nothing, but something close to it.

This... It feels good. I'm floating, in nothingness. My senses have fallen asleep and all I can feel is a fuzzy sensation that is intoxicating.

I don't feel the flow of time. It is as if I am one with eternity. Don't we all want that though? To escape from the clutches of continuity and find peace in perpetual harmony? It's just my mind, and peace.

I don't know how long I've been here. I don't bother. Because, nothing has felt more like home. I'm sure. Not even my home. There are no worries. No tangible objects. It's all abstract... here. But even the concepts, feel out of reach.

How numb am I? Is this alright? Or am I defeating the purpose by worrying when I shouldn't be?

How long has it been? How did I get here?

Does it even matter?

The only thing I feel is peace with myself. And it must be the most beautiful sensation. I should cherish this, until eternity grows jealous of me.

I don't know how long it takes but, after sometime, I sense the feeling change. My senses start coming back. It's hard to describe how, but, I'm made aware of it. The first to come, is my sight.

Or... was it always there. Only obstructed?

It must be so. Because, there is a shift, that I notice.

A black fluid that kept me cozy, lifts off of me. It's a mist. It ceases cradling me, and lets me in, to the light. A confusing light.

I had forgotten breathing. So, when I try, I get surprised. Here, I need not breathe.

Because, here, I don't own a body. I hover. There's a me. But, only my consciousness.

Colours and ideas meld together around me. Concepts, deities...

I'm there. The Holy Trinity. And...

I look down. There it is, the spiral. I look above. There it is, again.

How long have I been stranded here for? What am I doing?

Have I been high on the positive energy this realm provided me with? Because that seems troubling...

Space buddy...

The black mist, now coalesced to form a sphere, comes into my purview.

We've been recovering, so he says.

And then he starts moving me along with him. Suddenly, I feel much more... whole. Ah, so...that's what's been happening.

However, I feel longing. I feel a foreign sensation. What is...

"...dan."

"Huh?"

It's happening.

The world spins. The spiral churns, suddenly active. It cascades through me, around me, passing me by faster than I can fathom. I fall into the eye, keep falling. Fractals all around. Then black, white and golden, peeking through, an audience. And copper, a foreign entity, hiding behind.

"Jordan." It's clearer now. Someone's been calling me.

A sudden chill runs wild. It can't be. It is not possible. How can-

I fall out of the eye. It felt so short. Like that time before...

I fall onto the infinite plane. I touch down. I stand to behold my hands and feet. Here, I'm whole, completely. I have a body.