I wonder how I'm perceived
With my blonde curls
And ripped jeans
I spend so long agonizing over how I look
Do people even care? I need to see myself through someone else's eyes I need to see myself laugh too loudly Smile so wide you can see my crooked fucking teeth I need see myself on the floor laughing so hard I can't breathe And the bad parts too I need to see myself say something mean to someone I love out of anger I need to see myself burn my inner thigh because my thoughts hurt so much I need to see my fears wrapped so tightly around my body I can't move or breathe or do anything but call my friend to tell her I'm dying
I wanna see my life through someone else's eyes
So I can know if I deserve to be loved
