Finding the one / DISCONTINUED

Chapter 9

Joe's P.O.V

I was sat in the family room with Alfie after hearing the news about Emma. Zoë had gone to get a drink. I was still mad at him for hurting my sister and knocking Emma out but he was there with me. Thinking about Emma made me burst into tears; I just couldn't hold them back anymore. Alfie came over to me and comforted me but then he stopped and was looking over towards the door. I didn't want to look up so I kept my head in my hands. Then I heard it a voice I thought I wouldn't hear.

 "Joe, please look up. I'm here now."  I looked up and Alfie was no longer in the room but there right in front of me was Emma.

"Emma, what, how, when?" I couldn't seem to get my words out properly.

"Its fine Joe, I am here you don't have to say anything."

"But how? We were just told that you were in a coma and you had an operation, then we got told that you could die. How the heck did this happen?"

"Well I can't remember much obviously but I was talking to Zoë about..." she paused and I know why. Should I tell her I know or not?

"Shush its fine I know, I was on the other side of that door when you were telling Zoë."

"Well anyways after that I can't remember what happened next all I remember is waking up in a different room and getting told that when I was ready I could come here and see all of you."

I hugged her tightly "I was so worried I am glad you are ok."

"Joe I know we're in a hospital but can we play 21 questions so I can get to know you better?"

"Of course." I said letting her out of the hug.

We were finished playing 21 questions. It turns out that we have so much in common with one another.

"I feel like we are going to be great friends Joe!" Emma said before embracing me into a tight hug.

"Me too!" I said.

Alfie's P.O.V

"What are you doing up?" I said tightly hugging her.

"I woke up about an hour ago but the doctor said I should wait a bit before I got out of bed." Emma said before pulling out of a hug.

"I think you should talk to Joe, he just met you but he hasn't talked for the amount of time you have been here."

"I will do. Thank you Alfie for everything you have done for me."

"Don't thank me; I'm the one who put you in here in the first place. Anyway I will go and find Zoë she's been gone for a long time; I'm a bit worried about her I think she might have had a bit of a panic attack."

"Oh yeah." She giggled. "I will go and see if Joe will talk, ok, bye Alf."

"Bye Emmie." That was our nicknames for each other even though everyone called us them they were special to us.

            I walked out of the family room and headed to find Zoë. I had a feeling she might have headed outside for some fresh air, so I headed to the gardens and I am so glad I did because I found her straight away on a bench by herself, crying. I quickly ran over to her and embraced her into a tight hug.

 (A:N- there seems to be a lot of hugging in this chapter *insert crying laughter face*)

"Zoë are you alright?"

"Yeah, I'm fine Al."

"Little one, I know you're not, you can tell me you know."

"Fine. I'm not. You really want to know why?" I nodded "Where do I start. Firstly I have to live with anxiety and I hate it, I feel so embarrassed whenever I have a panic attack. I feel like I can't make anyone happy and when I try I fail. I hate to see my brother in the state he is in right now, and knowing that I can't help him makes me worse. And last of all I love you and I don't even know if you love me back. I know I haven't heard the whole story but the reason I said yes to marrying you was because I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you and only you I have never felt this way about anyone apart from now and I thought you felt the same way, but coming out of where we went on our first date and saw you kissing another girl in the same spot we had our first kiss it shattered my heart and my dream and obviously I was wrong for thinking I could find someone who would feel the same way I did."

 By this point my beautiful girlfriend was crying, and I couldn't take it anymore so I grabbed my blade from my wallet and pressed it against my skin. I had been clean for 2 years now, ever since I met Zoë and she found out she gave me the strength to stop and now I didn't have her.

"Alf, stop don't do it."

"Zo, you shouldn't be embarrassed it's not your fault you have anxiety. Don't ever say you can't make anyone happy, you made me happy when no one else could, and you got me through a really rough time in my life. You made me the happiest man in the whole world when you said you would be my girlfriend, and then you made me the happiest man in the whole galaxy when you agreed to marry me. You have never failed to make me happy. I know it's hard to see Joe how he was but that is not your fault; the only person who could get him to talk was Emma when she walked in the room. Zoë I do still love you I will never stop loving you. The girl you saw me with was my sister who I hadn't seen for 4 year because she moved to Australia; I kissed her on the cheek. I would never think about kissing another girl, why would I when I have a beautiful girl who I can kiss. I never thought I would find that one girl who filled the large space in my heart but if you cut me open right now the whole of my heart would have that one girl's name on it, and it would be there forever, even if that girl stopped loving me and that girl has found a guy that loves her to the moon and back and even further. And the name of that girl is Zoë Sugg."

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